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Forever and Always Chapter 39 to 43
CHAPTER 39.1:Feelings change..
Cez's POV
Nandito kami ngayon sa Riverdale Field para mapanood ang Frisbee game nila. Napilit lang ako nila Jel kasi kasali din ang kanyang secret crush, hindi si John ah. Wahahaha. Ang landi talaga nung babaeng yun eh. Haha. Kailangan din daw kasi ng support ng team eh, kaya pumunta kami.
Ang sakit ng mata ko, more like puso ko.
It crushes into tiny pieces.. It is indeed true, ang sakit sakit kapag nakikita mo na ang taong mahal mo eh, may mahal nang iba. FCKSHT lang. Ang sakit sakit. Nagsisi akong sumama dito.
Well I just saw them hugged each other. Gagabb, oh I mean Gabriel also kissed Elise on her cheeks before entering the game. And it breaking my damn heart.
Fck, my tears.. TAE NAMAN OHH -___- Alam kong masakit yung nakikita ko pero tingin pa din ako ng tingin. I can't resist. Ugh, gustong gusto ko siyang agawin kay Elise at yakapin at halikan.. PERO SHT! Hindi na pwede.. :''(
Yes, we broke up.. For some goddamn reason. :''(
"Hala Cez, okay ka lang ba?" Jel
*BATOK* "Shonga ka talaga Jellyn!! Malamang hindi, makita mo ba naman ang taong mahal mo ng may kayakap na iba tapos okay lang?! Tss. Kasalanan mo to eh! Kung hindi mo dinala edi sana----"
"It's nobody's fault Laura, hindi naman alam ni Jel na nandito yan eh. Hehe. Okay lang ako..." I gave them a smile, a weak one.
"Ang masokista mo lang Cez, wow lang.." Laura
"YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHH!" Nagsisigawan yung mga tao, naka 1 point na kasi yung school namin..
<///////////////3 ASDHJKL :'''(
Sa Frisbee kasi may line 1 at line 2, kapag may nakascore na, magpapalit na ng line or team players. Pagkapunta na pagkapunta ni Gabriel dun sa bench ng team eh..
"YIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!" Yeah, nagsisigawan sila.. Hinalikan kasi ni Elise si Gagabb, ugh!! GABRIEL NGA EH -____- <//3
Hays, ganto pala ang pakiramdam hanggang pinapanood mo silang sobrang saya at sweet. Parang sinaksak ang puso ko ng labing limang kutsilyo.
While looking at them... Naiisip ko kung bakit niya ako pinagpalit at iniwan... Mas maganda, mas sexy, mas maganda ang accent niya.. Hindi ko nga lang sure sa ugali.. Pero totoo nga, mas bagay sila. Kaya niya ba ako iniwan? Cause' I was never enough for him? <//3
Titig na titig lang ako sknila, nang biglang nagtama ang mga mata namin ni Gabriel. Bigla naman niya tong iniwas at niyakap niya si Elise. Wow, nanadya lang? Ganyan ba siya ka proud at ka saya kapag si Elise ang kasama niya at hindi ako?
Hindi ko na kaya ang mga nangyayari, feeling ko anytime magbbreakdown ako dito. Nanghihina ako. Parang unti unting nagiging jelly ang mga paa ko..
Dahil sa hindi ko na kaya ito, "Jel, Laura ah eh u-una na ako... May tatapusin p-pa kasi ako eh.. S-sige.." Then I smiled. :D // :''(
"Kaya mo bang umuwing mag isa?" Jel
Tumango ako at ngumiti, "Yeah, kelangan kong mapagisa eh.. He he s-sige.." sabay alis na.. Tinawag nila ako ulit pero di na ako lumingon.. Ang gusto ko lang mangyari ay lumayo na dito.
Hindi na din napigilan ang mga luha kong lumabas, masyado na akong nasasaktan sa mga nangyari. Feeling ko sasabog na ang puso ko sa sobrang bigat.. Mula noong break up eh hindi pa ako nakakaiyak ng ayos. Hindi pa kasi ganuung nag sisink in sken ang mga pangyayari. Ngayon pa lang..
Tumawid na ako ng bridge.. Hindi ko namalayan na nasa Riverdale Farm na pala ako. Sa sobrang kakaiyak ko eh hinayaan ko na lang ang mga paa ko na dalin ako kung saan man. Libre naman entrance dito eh kaya pumasok ako at malamang may mga hayop doon at buti na lang nakakita ako ng mahabang upuan dun at umupo. Katapat niya yung mga kabayo.
Hay buti pa sila tahimik at masaya ang buhay..
Sobrang sakit na malaman na ang taong mahal mo ay nagsawa na sa pagmamahal mo at nahulog nang tuluyan sa iba. Hindi ko naman alam na masyado siyang nalunod sa pagmamahal ko at nasalo ng iba.
*FLASHBACK*
Yakap yakap niya ako, "Cezzain, let's break up..."
No.. Hindi.. T-tama ba yung mga naririnig ko.. H-hindi.. Si Gagabb ba to?!
Napakalas ako sa pagkakayakap niya at may hindi maintindihang mukha.. "Gagabb.. Don't try to joke me.. It's our anniversary.." I tried composing myself, smiling. kahit sa loob loob ko eh halos hindi na tumibok ang puso ko nung marinig ko yung mga salitang yun..
Hinawakan niya ako sa mga braso ko, "No Cezzainne.. I'm not joking you.." sabay tungo, "This relationship is not working out anymore.. And I'm effin tired.. Let's just end this.."
Napahawak ang mga kamay ko sa bibig ko. H-hindi.. Nangyayari ba talaga to?! Nakikipagbreak na ba talaga sken si Gagabb?!
LOADING..
LOADING..
LOADING..
"E-end?!" Mahina kong sabi, naiiyak na talaga ako.
Tumango siya, "We're just hurting each other...I'm tired.."
"HURTING?!" Bulalas ko, hindi ko na kaya to.. "DO YOU THINK THAT YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE WHO'S TIRED HUH?! DO YOU THINK THAT I'M NOT HURTING HUH?! DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH IT HURTS RIGHT NOW HUH?! GAGABB! YOU DON'T HAVE ANY IDEA HOW MY HEART BREAKS NOW!! YOU DON'T HAVE AN IDEA!" Unti unting rumaragasa ang mga luha ko..
"TELL ME! TELL ME IS THAT THE ONLY REASON?! YOU PROMISED ME GAGABB! WHAT HAPPENED?!" :''( <///3
"I've... fallen inlove with someone..else.." sabay tungo niya
<//////////////////3 Nanlaki ang mata ko at hindi ko ma-describe yung nararamdaman ko. Huh?! Ano daw?! nainlove na siya sa iba?! EFFIN! Ang sakit lang...
"I-inlove?! P-pero?! P-paano?!" Naguguluhan kong sabi, "Akala k-ko ba m-mahal m-mo ko?! You promised me..." Gulong gulo na ako, hindi ko na alam ang kakahantungan neto..
Ayaw niyang sumagot.. nakatungo lang siya.. "S-sino?" sabi ko ng mahina
"Elise.." mahina niyang tugon..
<///3 Nakaramdam ako ng pagttraydor. Para akong dinaganan ng isang libong hallow blocks. Bakit sa lahat ng babae siya pa?! <//3
Tuloy tuloy lang ang luha na dumadaloy sa mga mata ko, "Bakit?!"
"I'm sorry Cezzainne.."
"I'M SORRY?! BULLSHIT! TINGIN MO MAPAPALITAN LANG NG ISANG SORRY MO ANG SAKIT NG NARARAMDAMAN KO AH?! EH KUNG KAYA NGA LANG SANA PINASABUGAN MO NA LANG AKO NG ISANG LIBONG SORRY MO! PERO SHT LANG! HINDI EH! BAKIT?! BAKIT MO TO NAGAWA SKEN GAGABB! SABI MO.. MAHAL NA MAHAL MO KO?! ANONG NANGYARI SA PAGMAMAHAL NA YUN?! Anong nangyari?!"
"Cezzainne.. I had fallen out of love.. with you.." Parang may tumamang pana sa mga puso ko. Bulls eye. Fck. Ang sakit.
"B-bakit sa lahat s-siya pa?!"
"I don't know.. But I think I lo----" bago ko pang tuluyan marinig ang sasabihin niya.. pinutol ko na
"Pero paano na ako? Tayo?" :''(
"Wala na.. I just woke up Cezzainne, realizing that Elise is the one I lo----"
*PUUUK*
Binato ko skniya yung binigay niya skeng bracelet na may nakalagay na FOREVER & ALWAYS
"T*NG*N* MO! NAPAKASINUNGALING MO! BINALIKAN MO KO TAPOS IIWAN MO KO DAHIL SA ISANG ARAW HINDI MO NA LANG AKO MAHAL?! GANYAN BANG KABABAW ANG PAGMAMAHAL MO SKEN AH?! BAKIT ANO BANG MERON SIYA NA WALA AK----------"
Hinawakan niya ako sa mag kabilang braso ko.. "MAS NAIINTINDIHAN NIYA AKO AT MAS..."
"MAS ANO?! JAN KA NAMAN MAGALING EH! ANG IKUMPARA KAMING DALAWA! WALA KA NANG NAKITA KUNG HINDI PURO SIYA SIYA SIYA, BAKIT KAYA NIYA BANG PANTAYAN ANG PAGMAMAHAL KO SAYO AH?!"
"HINDI MAN NIYA KAYANG TAPATAN YUN PERO MAS KAYA KONG HIGITAN ANG PAGMAMAHAL KO SKNIYA KESA SA PAGMAMAHAL KO SAYO!!"
Napahawak ako sa bibig ko, humahagul gol na ako. ARAY! TAGUSAN EH! Ang sakit lang <//3
Tinititigan ko lang siya sa mga mata niya, alam ko, alam kong nagsisinungaling ka lang Gagabb.. Alam kong ako at ako pa din ang mahal mo..
Sa sobrang panghihina ko eh napabagsak na lang ako sa floor, at nag ngangawa, talo ko pa ang batang ayaw bilhan ng magulang ng gusto niya sa kakaiyak. Hindi ko inaasahan to..
Hinawakan ko yung mga kamay niya habang nakaluhod, "Please Gagabb, wag mo tong gawin.. Ayoko.. Ayok tayong mag break.. Mahal na mahal kita. Please wag mo kong iwan.." Desperada na kung desperada, mahal na mahal ko tong nilalang nato at gagawin ko ang lahat para mag stay lang siya sa buhay ko.
Lumuhod din siya para mag ka level kami, he cupped my face and wiped my tears..
"Cezzainne..."
"Please Gab.." I'm holding his hands that are cupped in my face, "Wag mo kong iwan.."
"Cez..."
Tumingin ako sa mga mata niya, "Sabihin mo sken.. na mahal mo pa din ako..."
He just stared at me, blankly..
"Please Gab.." I closed my eyes at sobrang daming tumutulo na mga luha..
"open your eyes.."
I opened it..
"Don't make this hard for us Cezzainne, I... don't... love...you... anymore..." Dahan dahan na niyang tinanggal ang mga kamay na nasa mukha ko..
Pero hinawakan ko ulit to, "Please Gab.. Look me straight in the eyes and tell me.. Hindi mo na ba talaga ako mahal?" :''(
"Cezzainne.. You were never good enough for me.. I don't love you anymore..." Tapos tumayo siya
ADSHJKL! Gusto kong magwala! Hindi ako naging sapat skniya?! TAE LANG! <//3
I wiped all my tears and then got the couraged to stand up..
I tried my very best to smile at him, "Wow, Gabriel, you are really something.. You promised me that the our next Valentines day and our 1st anniversary will be full of suprises and will be great.. You said that you will make me remember only happy moments.. But I guess this just so great. And yes, I was surprised, really.. I'm sorry for myself.. For letting me believe in your stupid lies and your crucial promises.. And yes, I may be not good enough for you but maybe you're not just worth it anymore.." I started walking near the door but before I could open the door..
I faced him again, " Well thank you for making may Valentines Day, miserable.. As always.." Then smiled at him..
Sa stairs ako dumaan, ayoko sa elevator.. Ayoko munang umuwi. Linchak na mga luha to eh! Bigla na namang rumagasa..
Tuloy tuloy lang ako sa pagbaba sa hagdan hanggang sa hindi na kinaya pa ng paa ko at bigla na lang napaupo sa staircase..
Masyado nang masakit para sken.. Tinatakpan ko ng mga kamay ko ang mata ko. Ayaw kong lumabas ang mga luhang to..
*PHONE RINGS*
Si kuya Carl tumatawag.. psh, wrong timing naman eh..
I composed myself at pinunasan ang mga luha ko *EHEM*
"K-kuya?"
(Baby, ayos ka lang? bat ganyan ang boses mo?")
"Ah eh K-kuya.. a-ayos lang ako. HA HA HA.. Ah ano ba yun?!" I tried my very best to make my voice lively.
(Ah wala naman... Uuwi ka na ba galing sa date niyo?")
Hayy kung alam mo lang kuya.. "Ah o-oo! Sige malapit na ako.. Bbye!"
("Sige bye. Ingat baby!")
Call ended..
WEW! AYOKO NG UMIYAK! Masyado na akong nawawalan ng tubig sa katawan.. kaya naman tinuloy ko na ang pagbaba ko at nung makarating na sa 12th floor eh dali dali nang pumunta sa apt. at bago pumasok ng bahay eh nag ayos muna ako..
LET'S WEAR A SMILE! :DD
*katok*
"Oh nandito na pala si baby eh! happy valentines day!" Bati sken ni Kuya Carl, binigyan niya ako ng mga bulaklak, hays buti pa siya..
"Oh baby, ayos ka lang? Bat ganyan ang mga mata mo?"
"Ah kuya wala lang to, nagkadramahan lang kami ni Gagabb, you know anniversary eh.. He he he.. Sige salamat Kuya dito ah, punta muna ako sa kwarto.." *weak smile*
Pumasok na ako ng kwarto ko at humiga at ipinikit ang mga mata ko..
*END OF FLASHBACK*
Pagkatapos na pagkatapos ng araw na yun eh, hindi na ako umiyak pa. Kahit nakikita ko silang magkasama sa school at nachichismis eh dedma na lang ako at pangiti ngiti kahit sa loob loob ko eh, kulang na lang sumabog ang puso ko sa sobrang bigat ng nararamdaman neto.
Ngayon na lang ulit ako naka iyak ng ganto. Wew! Sarap umiyak! Nakakagaan ng feeling.. :'')
"hankerchief?"
0______0 nagulat naman ako dun sa biglang nag-offer sken at tumingala..
"Jeremy?!"
CHAPTER 39.2:
The truth is forever blinded by lies.
Cez's POV
"Jeremy?" Lumuluha pa din ako.
He gave me a comforting smile and sat beside me, "Do you really believe that he has fallen out of love with you?" Out of the blue, yan ang sinabi niya.
"I don't know.." kinuha niya yung kamay ko, kaya napatingin ako skniya. He's wearing that smile, that smile that he always shows whenever I'm with him..
babawiin ko sana yung kamay ko ng hinigpitan niya ito at nilagay yung panyo niya, "Damn. I hate seeing girls crying.. Here.."
"Tsss. Really? kaya pala pinaiyak mo kaming dalawa ni Jel noon.." I whispered to myself.
"Saying something?" sambit niya
hay nako, panira ng emo moment etong lalaking to eh, nawala tuloy yung mga rumaragasang luha ko kanina, aish, sayang naman -____- lol :))
"Nah.." Tapos pinunasan ko yung mga luha ko gamit nung panyo niya, "Uh, why are you here?"
"I was planning to watch the game but then I saw Jel.."
0___0 nanlaki ang mga mata ko, "J-jel? Why what's wrong?"
"You know that already.. she's bitter to me and you know that..." He chuckled, psh. Oo nga pala, haha! nakakatawa naman to, nakikicooperate sa pagmmove on ni Jel :))))
"WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!" Tawa ko, shet hindi ko mapigilan eh :)))
"Ey! Why are you laughing? Is there something wrong with what I said?" >///<
"HAHAHAHA it's just that HAHAHAHAHAHA.... nothing.." Then I stopped laughing, actually pinipigil ko meron na kasi siyang red face eh, tsss. Nahiya siguro sa mga sinabi niya :))
"Hey! You have a red face ehh?" :)))) sabi ko
"Pssh. Know what? I miss you calling Ms. Red Face... haha"
"Tss." then I rolled my eyes.
"You know you look beautiful when you smile.." :D
"Bolero.." I hissed.
"Hey! Speak English!" haha napipikon nato, kanina ko pa tinatagalog eh :))
"Psh.. I only look beautiful when I smile.. so it means that---"
"Hey! Don't misinterpret it.. It's better for a girl to smile than to cry.. And you always look beautiful.." *gorgeous smile* shemay! :))
"Tssss. yeah right.. You know liars go to hell..."
"I'm not a liar.. You're beautiful that's one of the reason why I love you..."
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Bigla siyang napatigil sa mga sinabi niya.. Napatingin na lang ako skniya.. Shemay, ayaw mag sink in ng mga sinabi niya sken..
"HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA!" tawa niya, alam ko namang peke eh, psh. Nadulas masyado yung bibig niya -____-
"Ah.. Hehehe.." Yun na lang ang nasabi ko.
AWKWARD! -________-
"Uh Cez, just forget what I said.." >///<
"Hahaha I didn't hear it... Don't worry." *3* hahaha LIAR KA CEZ! -__-
He just gave me a smile, grabe natatawa ako skniya, namumula siya.. :))
Naglakad na lang kami pauwi.. Wala kwentuhan lang ng mga nangyari sa buhay namin this past year..
Silence again..
"I'm not a liar.. You're beautiful that's one of the reason why I love you..."
"I'm not a liar.. You're beautiful that's one of the reason why I love you..."
"I'm not a liar.. You're beautiful that's one of the reason why I love you..."
"AISH!"
"Hey is something wrong with you?!"
"AY PALAKA!!!" Nagulat naman ako, hinawakan niya kasi ako sa shoulders ko.
"WAHAHAHAHAHA! What are you saying?! You people are looking at us right?" :)))
"Ay oo nga pala.. Tsk. Asar!" sabay palo ko sa ulo ko ng mahina
"HAHAHAHAHA! You are really something Cez..." Sabay tap niya sa ulo ko, aish asar naman oooh! >/////<
Naglakad na lang kami ng tahimik.. AWKWARD! -____-
"You'll go to the spring concert right?" Nandito na kami sa tapat ng bldg. ko, hinatid niya kasi ako.
Tumango siya, "Make your performance good, okay? Or else you'll pay for my entrance tickets.." He chuckled.
"Yeah yeah.. Bye!" Then I smiled at him..
...
*SPRING CONCERT*
"YAAAH! You look gorgeous Cez! Break a leg bruha!" Jel
"Tsss. Kaya mo yan, sing it with all emotions ah?" Laura tapped my shoulder
I smiled at them, "AJA!"
"FIGHTING!" We said in unison tapos lumabas na sila ng backstage at pumunta na sa seats nila..
WEW! Kabado lang ako ngayon.. AJA KAYA KO TO!
Natapos na ang dalawang performances.. SHEMAAAAAY! E-eto na ako!
"For our third performance ladies and gentlemen, here is Cezzainne Martin to sing an endearing song to someone who's dearly special to her.. She is singing Disaster by Jojo.. Let's giver her around of applause!"
*palakpakan*
Lumabas na ako ng stage kasama ang gitara ko..
"GO CEZZZZZZZ!!" Sigaw ni Jel
Nginitian ko sila. Napalihis naman yung tingin ko nung may pumasok sa pintuan ng auditorium..
Si Gabriel at si Elise.. Holding hands.. <////3
Habang nakatingin ako sknila, I smiled and nagsalita na sa mic, "Hey guys!"
*Palakapakan* "Hey also!!" sigaw nila
"This song is dedicated to someone who promised me Forever and Always.. Well, I think you know who you are.. *grin* And guess what? That promised turned to a disaster.." :DD // :''(
I started strumming the guitar and they all clapped and shouting...
"SCREW THAT GUY!!" sigaw nung isa, natawa naman ako pati yung mga audience
"I'm back at ya!" sabi ko then winked..
I looked at their gaze and said, "Nothing lasts forever. Forever’s a lie. All we have is what’s between hello and goodbye.."
And then I started singing...
"I'm trying not to pretend that it won't happen again and again like that
Never thought it would end, but you got up in my head and my head like that
You made me happy baby, but love is crazy, so amazing
But it's changing, rearranging
I don't think I can take anymore.."
Laging sumasagi sa isip ko na, hindi mo na ako ulit magagawang iwanan dahil alam ko... nararamdaman ko na hindi mo talaga kaya, kaya naman lagi kong winawalang bahala itong doubt ko, pero tama pala talaga ang instincts ko. Hindi ko aakalain na sa pangalawang pagkakataon eh iiwan mo ako.. Pinasaya mo ko, na parang na sa cloud nine ako, pero nagbago ang lahat..
You changed, I changed.. Our love changed..
"Cuz the walls burned up and our love fell down
And it turned into whatever now we're saying never
Feel the fire cuz it's all around and it's burning
For forever and always
We gotta let it go, be on our way
Look for another day, cuz it ain't the same my baby
Watch it all fall to the ground
No happy ever after, just disaster.."
Dumating lang siya, nasira na ang pagmamahalan natin.. Ngayon, pinanonood lang kitang mahalin ang taong nakasalo sayo mula sa pagkalunod mo sa pagmamahal ko..
"Didn't want it this way, I only wanted to say
Is I loved you right
Then your love went away, and I needed you to stay
But I can't wait for you to realize
All the things I gave you, made you change you
Your dreams came true
When I met you, now forget you
Don't want anymore.."
Minahal naman kita ng tama ah? Pero ano pa bang kulang? Bakit mo ko pinagpalit? Nahulog ka na sa iba, pero pano ako? Kelangan kita pero hindi ko na kaya ang sakit ng nararamdaman ko. I'm in pain. Sana.. ma-realize mo na mahal na mahal kita..
"Cuz the walls burned up and our love fell down
And it turned into whatever now were saying never
Feel the fire cuz it's all around and it's burning
For forever and always
We gotta let it go, be on our way
Look for another day, cuz it ain't the same my baby
Watch it all fall too the ground
No happy ever after, just disaster..
You shot the bullet, you shot the bullet that killed me
Not feeling my heart beat, and now I was dying
I I've been through it, I I've been through the agony
And now my eyes I'm trying, trying, no more crying,
Lying's just a game,
To stand up straight and I'm all right cuz my loves on his way..
Yeah
Burning for forever and always"
You pulled the trigger and went straight to my heart. I can't feel anything but pain and agony. I've been through a lot these past few days, and damn I'm getting tired of crying like a baby. One day, I'm gonna stand up again and show to him what he lost.
"Cuz the walls burned up and our love fell down
And it turned into whatever and now we're saying never
Feel the fire cuz it's all around and it's burning
For forever and always
We gotta let it go, be on our way
Look for another day, cuz it ain't the same my baby
Watch it all fall too the ground
No happy ever after, just disaster
Cuz the walls burned up when our love fell down
And it turned into whatever now we're saying never
Feel the fire cuz it's all around and it's burning
For forever and always
We gotta let it go, be on our way
Look for another day, cuz it ain't the same my baby
Watch it all fall to the ground
No happy ever after, just disaster.."
No more Forever and Always..
"WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!" *claps*
"DAMN THAT BOY!!!"
"YEAAAAAH! WOOOOOOO!!"
Sigawan at palakpakan nila, napahawak naman ako sa mukha, shemaaay! May mga luha pala sa mata ko.. Masyado kong nadamdam yung kanta..
Lahat sila nagtayuan, standing ovation ang loka! Wahaha :))
Sobrang tuwa ko eh, "Thank you! I'm glad you liked it!" sabay bow at umalis na ng stage..
naririnig ko pa din yung palakpakan nila..
Pagdating ko dun sa backstage, sinalubong ako nung mga staff na students na incharge a niyakap, "Congratulations Cez! Nice performance!"
I just smiled at them..
Lumabas muna ako ng backstage..At dumeretso sa staircase na malapit doon at umupo..
Feeling ko lalo akong nanghina.. Wala namang makakakita sken doon dahil lahat sila nasa loob naman..
"Tss. Screw me?" may narinig akong nagsalita sa likuran ko
"G-gabriel?"
Parang badtrip siya, hindi ko maipinta yung mukha niya, "Tell me, balak mo ba talaga akong ipahiya sa maraming tao ah? Ganyan ka ba talaga kababaw Cez?"
AWWWW <///3 Hindi ko alam ang sasabihin ko... Kababaw? Hindi naman. Bitter lang -___-
Hindi ko siya iniimik.. Tumingin ulit ako ng deretso.
Umupo siya sa tabi ko, may pagitan naman..
"Tss. Forever and Always.. Lintik! Kung bakit ko nga ba ipinangako yun sayo.. Ang korny lang nun.. Pang mga jejemon lang ang ganon.. Tsss!" Sambit niya
"Hindi mo na ba talaga ako mahal?" 0___0 nagulat din ako sa mga nasabi ko, shemaaaay! >////<
"Do you think I will break up with you kung mahal pa kita? Mag isip ka naman Cez, akala ko pa naman matalino ka.."
ADSAHSJK! My heart breaks.. Shemay! Kung bakit ko pa kasi natanong yun, oh ayan na yung sagot.. ANG SAKIT DIBA?! <//3
My eyes are starting to wet again.. Geez -___- ang iyakin ko talaga pag dating skniya :'(
"B-bakit ano bang m-meron s-siya na wala ako? W-wala na ba talaga tayong pag-asa?" Tae! I sound desperate, pero shemay lang. Mahal ko to eh! <//3
"Meron siyang pagmamahal ko, ayun ang wala ka Cez.." Straight niyang sagot. ADSJKL lang! Hindi ba pwedeng magsinungaling naman siya?! Ang masokista ko lang ah, alam kong masasaktan ako sa sagot niya pero tanong pa din ako ng tanong. Nyeta lang :'''(
Hindi ko na talagang mapigilan ang mga luhang to, masyado nang mabigat ang nararamdaman ko baka sakaling gumaan kapag dinaan ko sa pag iyak. :'(
Tumayo na siya.. pero hinawakan ko yung kamay niya, one last.. please, last na talaga to..
"Inaru Taka Gagabb..." And then I let his hand go... "You somewhat deserve what I did awhile ago.." Then I smiled and stood up.
"Please make her happy, be happy.." Then I tapped his shoulders and went back to the backstage..
Pagkapasok na pagkapasok ko ng backstage.. I sat in the corner while hugging my knees and cried.. hard.. very hard that there's no more tears coming out of my eyes..
"Cez?"
Pinunasan ko kaagad ang mukha ko at tumingala, "Lorenz?"
"Cez.. Oh anong nangyari na naman sayo?" Yung papable ni Laura
I gave him a smile, a weak one, "O-okay lang ako..."
Tinabihan niya ako, and then 0____0
He hugged me.. "Cez.. Stop pretending.. You have friends you know.. You can always count on us.."
I started crying again, "T-thank you..."
"Shhh.."
...
"Hey soul sister, hey there mister, mister
On the radio, stereo
Hey soul sister, I don't wanna miss a single thing you do tonight
Hey soul sister, I don't wanna miss a single thing you do tonight
Hey Hey Hey (tonight)
Hey Hey Hey (tonight).."
Yan ang closing song namin na lahat ng nagperform, nagpalakpakan ang tao and then we bowed..
Pagkatapos nun naglabasan na ang mga tao at ako naman eh bumaba na ng stage at inayos ang gitara ko at lumabas na.
6:30-8:00 pm kasi yung Spring Concert so nung paglabas ko kaunti na lang ang tao sa hallway, tss. Ang tagal ko pa lang nag ayos.
Tumingin tingin ako kung nasaan sila Laura..
AYUN!
Dali dali akong pumunta sknila..
"LAURA.. JEL!"
Pagkalapit na pagkalapit ko...
*PAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAK*
0_______0
Sinampal ako ni Laura..
"B-bakit?!" Napahawak ako sa pisnge ko.
"MALANDI KAAA!" Sigaw niya sken..
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CHAPTER 40:
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Ang tiwala ay parang foundation ng building. Kapag nasira siguradong gibang giba ang pinaghirapan na buidling.
Cez's POV
*SLAP*
"MALANDI KA!!" 0_____________________0 napahawak ako sa pisnge ko, shemay ang lakas lang ng sampal sken ni Laura, what the hell? Anyare?
I gave her a what the eff happened look. @__@
"Laura, that's enough!" Pigil ni Renz skniya.
"MGA LECHE KAYO! MAGSAMA NGA KAYONG DALAWA!!!" sabay walk-out niya, hala anong nangyari. Dali dali naman na sinundan siya ni Renz.
Nakatulala pa din ako, I was left dumbfounded. Naramdaman ko na lang na tumutulo na pala ang mga luha ko, napatingin naman ako kay Jel nung hinaplos niya yung likod ko to comfort me.
"Anung n-nangyari?" I mouthed confusingly to her.
Kinuha niya ang cellphone niya and may pinakita siya sken na video..
Napahawak na lang ako sa mga bibig ko, yun yung kinocomfort ako ni Renz sa back stage. WHAT THE HELL?! I was framed up?!
"Woosh. What a slut.."
"I think that's why his boyfriend broke up with that whore.."
Napalingon na lang ako and I saw them looking at me, nandidiri yung tingin nila sken. WHAT THE?! Talagang kinalat pa yung videong yun..
Napatingin naman ako kay Jel, umiiling iling na lang siya..
"N-no Jel... Ple-please believe me... Hindi ko kaya yun gawin sa kaibigan ko..." I held her hands.
But then, inalis niya lang ito, "I don't know Cez... This video says it all.."
"WHAT?! Pati ikaw ba naman Jel?! Kinomfort lang niya ako, it was just a comforting hug. No mutual or bullsht feelings, Jel..." Palakas ng palakas yung boses ko, hindi ko alam yung nararamdaman ko, masyadong mabilis ang mga pangyayari. So sa isang walang kwenta na video na yun, hinusgahan na nila ako? Without hearing my side. EFFIN! Ganyan ba ka-purol ang mga isipan nila ah?!
"Pero alam mo naman na.. AISH! Magpatila muna kayong dalawa ni Laura... Wag muna ngayon, baka lalo lang lumalala..."
"W-wala talaga y-yun...."
"AISH!" Sabay baba ni Jel, malapit kami sa may hagdanan eh. See? Pati siya iniwan din ako, akala ko pa naman mga totoong kaibigan ko sila. SHEMAY lang! Bakit ako pinaparusahan ni Lord ng ganto?! BAKIT?! Mabait naman akong anak, girlfriend, at kaibigan ah! PERO BAKIT GANTO?! Ako ang lumalabas na kontrabida sa sarili kong kwento.
Hahabulin ko sana si Jel nang may humawak sa balikat ko at bumulong.
It creeped me out, nagtaasan ang mga balahibo ko.
"Martin.. Now, does it hurt? Everyone around you is slowly leaving you.." Napalingon ako.
EFFIN! I JUST SAW A DEMON!
Elise with an evil smirk plus horns on top of her head.
"YOU!" I blurted out.
"Yes, Martin?" *smirk*
"You're the reason behind all these, aren't you?!"
She shrugged her shoulders and laughed evily, "Hahaha, you really entertain me with those sufferings of yours. It's giving me a pleasure, you see.."
"FCK YOU!!!!!" Ang sarap murahin ng bruhang to! Tengene talaga kumukulo ang dugo ko, gusto ko siyang sabunutan at patayin kaya lang nasa school grounds kami, ayokong madungisan ang clean record ko.
"Fuck me? HA HA HA, yeah soon. Me and YOUR EX BOYFRIEND WILL FCK EACH OTHER!"
*SLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAP*
"I HOPE YOU ROT IN HELL BITCH!!" Sabay alis, buti nga lang at yun lang ang inabot niya sken. yeah, I slapped her, real hard, yung tipong matatanggalan siya ng ulo. And I saw her face, ready for war but I ain't.
Wala na akong lakas para makipag gera skniya. Hinang hina na ako.
Una, iniwan ako ng taong mahal ko para sa babaeng patapon ang ugali. Pangalawa, tingin ng mga kaibigan ko sken eh isang manunulot, traydor at walang kwentang kaibigan. Pangatlo, lahat ng tingin ng mga ka school mate ko ay isang whore, o kung ano pa mang tawag nila sken.
ANO BANG GINAWA KO SA PAST LIFE KO PARA GANTUHIN AKO?! I DON'T DESERVE THIS! :''(
Tulala lang akong naglalakad. Mabuti naman at hindi ako hinabol nung demonyitang yun. At subukan niya pa akong resbakan, kahit pa mas matangkad siya sken, mapapatay ko talaga siya. Sobra sobra nang emosyon ang nararamdaman ko at tingin ko kayang kaya kong pumatay ng tao sa sobrang bigat at hinagpis ng puso ko.
[AN: singit si author, ang brutal lang ni Cez, oh well. Elise deserves to die! WAHAHAHAHAHAHA..sadist much lang :))]
Nasa labas na akong school, tulalang naglalakad. Walang pakeelam sa mundo, lutang kumbaga. Para akong high na lasing na hindi mo malaman.
*BOOOGSH*
I don't effin care kung may nababangga din ako. Wag lang nila akong bwisitin at baka saknila ko mabuntong tong nararamdaman ko.
"Ms. Sorry..." sabi nung nakabangga ko..
Pero dere deretso lang ako sa paglalakad, ayoko na siyang pansinin.
Naramdaman ko na lang na may humigit sa kamay ko at iniharap skniya...
"CEZZAINNE?! OH SHOOT! What happened to you?!"
-END OF POV-
Laura's POV
Grabe lang ang performance ni Cez, lahat ng tao na carried away sa speech niya at sa way ng pagkanta niya. NGAYON GABRIEL! HUH! SERVES HIM RIGHT! Girl power! XDD
After kumanta ni Cez, lahat ng tao nagpapalakpakan, standing ovation nga eh. Kaya pati kami ni Jel, nasama. Feel na feel kasi ni Cez ang paghandog ng kantang yun kay Gabriel.
Ang next nang kakanta eh si Enzobabes (errrrr! Hindi talaga ako sanay sa ganito, pero siguro nga ganto pag inlababo ka, kung ano anong nagagawa at nasasabi mo, power of love nga naman.)
Ayan na si Enzo sa stage, errr. Lahat ng babae tumitili, oo alam ko, ganyang ka-gwapo ang boyfriend ko. Tsss -_______-
Nagsalita na siya sa mic, "Uhm hello.."
And guess what? Lahat ng babae, tumitili. *irap* Natatawa tawa lang si Jel. Psh >.<
"Since Ms. Cezzainne dedicated her song to the one she truly loves, I will also dedicate this song to my babe. Hey there! I see you from here.." *wink*
Lahat naman ng tao napatingin sken, shemay! Kelangan may ganon pa?!
"Acheche, kiniklig!" Asar ni Jel, inirapan ko lang siya.
"You're really beautiful babe.." Lahat sila nagtitilian, aysus! Ano ba naman ito -___- "I know these past few days, things are getting complicated but I know we will go through this all together and no matter what happens.. Just remember I love you."
"KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!" sigawan nila, I can't help but smile. Tinutunaw niya ang bato kong puso :''>
He started strumming his guitar..
-END OF POV-
Lorenzo's POV ("PAPABLE" NI LAURA)
Nung sinabi ko yung intro lahat sila nagtitilian, and I can see na kinikilig itong babes ko. Shet! Ang gay, kinikilig din kasi ako. Hoho :))
I started strumming my guitar..
"There was a new girl in town.
She had it all figured out. (Had it all figured out)
And I'll state something rash.
She had the most amazing....smile.
I bet you didn't expect that.
But she made me change my ways. (She made me change my ways)
With eyes like sunsets baby.
And legs that went on for days."
Nung una ko siyang makita sa subdivison namin dati, alam ko na nung time na yun, tinamaan na ako skniya. Yes, I was mesmerized by her smile. It was natural and full of happiness. Simula pa lang nun, hindi na ako tumitingin sa ibang babae, nahulog na talaga kasi ako skniya. Everytime I look at her eyes, damn. She's so gorgeous.
"I'm fallin' in love
But it's fallin' apart.
I need to find my way back to the start.
When we were in love.
Oh things were better than they are.
Let me back into.
Into your arms.
Into your arms."
I fell in love with her, and will always fall for her. But now, our relationship is getting complicated because of some urgh! Naasar ako, nagkakamalabuan kasi kami eh. Yeah, I need to go back to the start.. Actually, we. Not as stangers, but the first time na naging kami. Well, I don't know. Yung unang feeling na lahat ayos at walang kumakalaban sainyo. I love her too much. And it's hurting me.
"She made her way to the bar.
I tried to talk to her.
But she seemed so far. (She seems so far)
Outta my league.
I had to find a way to get her next to me."
Nakita ko siya sa skating rink noon, which is sinadya ko talagang bunguin siya nun. (Basta nasa previous chaps. po iyon dati.) Sinadya ko yun, para lang makausap niya ako, kahit pagalit, kahit susungitan niya ako. Determinado kasi akong gawin siyang girlfriend at asawahin na panghabang buhay. Oo na ako na bading, pero mahal ko talaga siya, sobra. Ayoko nang maging torpe nun.
"I'm fallin' in love
But it's fallin' apart.
I need to find my way back to the start.
When we were in love.
Oh things were better than they are.
Let me back into.
Into your arms.
Into your arms.
Oh she's slippin' away.
I always freeze when I'm thinking of words to say.
All the things she does.
Make it seem like love.
If it's just a game. (Just a game)
Then I like the way that we play."
Hindi ko hahayaang mawala siya sken, hindi ko kakayanin eh. Hays. Kahit simpleng galaw niya lang at pag ngiti niya. I always find myself falling for her all over again. Habang tinitigan ko siya habang kumakanta ako, hindi ko mapigilan na hindi mapangiti. Hindi ko kasi aakalain na ang babaeng dati ko lang pinapangarap ay girlfriend ko na. Kaya hindi na ako magpapakatanga para pakawalan siya.
"I'm fallin' in love
But it's fallin' apart.
I need to find my way back to the start.
I'm fallin' in love
But it's fallin' apart.
I need to find my way back to the start.
When we were in love.
Oh things were better than they are.
Let me back into.
Into your arms.
Into your arms.
Into your arms.
Into your arms.."
After I sang, they all clapped. I smiled at her, my life. I saw tears in her eyes. Urgh. I just want to get off this stage and hug her.
I bowed and smiled once again to her then left the stage.
-END OF POV-
Laura's POV
After ng performance niya, hindi ko napigilan ang tears of joy ko. Bagay na bagay yung kanta saamin. Kinikilig na ewan ko yung feeling ko. May sumunod naman na nagperform, bigla na lang nagvibrate yung phone ko.
Tinignan ko kung sino nagtext pero unregistered number.
It was a video clip..
I opened it..
0______________________________________________________________0
"Oh sht!" I heard Jel cussed.
Napatingin naman ako skniya, she looked at me worriedly..
"You saw it?" Sabi ko, tumango lang siya.
"Sinong santanas ang nagkalat neto?" Jel
"takte! Eto ba ang sinasabi niyang pagmamahal ah?!" I formed my hands na parang susuntok, tae. Eto ba ang ginagawa niyang kalokohan behind my back?! AT TALAGANG SA KAIBIGAN KO PA AH! Di kaya eto ang reason kung bakit siya iniwan ni Gabriel ah? Dahil lumalandi ang girlfriend niya sa boyfriend ng kaibigan niya ah?! WHAT THE EFF lang! Trayduran ba talaga ah?!
"Chill Laura, kinokomfort lang naman niya si Cez eh.." Explain ni Jel
"Comfort?!" Pinipigilan kong sumigaw dahil nga nasa auditorium kami,"Hutaenang comfort yan! Kailangan may yakap at ganong ka-dikit?!?!"
"Alam mo naman ang sitwasyon ni Cez dba? Alam mo naman na----"
"Fck it! So kelangan boyfriend ko pa talaga ang magcomfort skniya ah?!"
"Eh intindihin----------"
"Shut up Jel, don't wanna hear those stupid explanations." Sabay irap, leche silang dalawa! ANG KAKAPAL NG MUKHA NILANG GUMAWA NG KUNG ANO ANO BEHIND MY BACK! -____-
After nung concert, dali daling bumaba si Enzo sa stage at nilapitan ako.
"Babe.."
*SLAAAAAP*
0________________________0 <-- ganyan ang rekasyon niya
I gave him my cellphone at ipinakita ko skniya, "Wow lang Lorenzo Hidalgo, you are one truly a liar! Love love? Fcksht lang! At talagang sa dilim pa kayo nagyayakapan ah..."
Pinipigilan na ako ni Jel pero hindi pa din ako nagpapaawat, so what kung may tao ah?! IDC!
"Babes.. It's not what you think it is..."
"Then what am I suppose to think ah? That my boyfriend is flirting with my best friend?! FCK----"
"Laura, tama na please, wag dito...." Pigil sken ni Jel sabay hinila ako sa labas, sa may mga stairs.
WOW LANG! May gana pang lumapit sken tong traydor kong best friend..
Pagkalapit na pagkalapit niya *SLAAAAAAAP*
"MALANDI KAAAAAAAAAA!" I blurted out to her. Inis na inis na ako, hindi ko alam na may secret agenda pala sila ng boyfriend ko behind my back. WHAT THE HELL!
Dali dali naman akong pinigilan ni Lorenzo na nagmamadaling lumabas sa audi, ""Laura, that's enough!"
"MGA LECHE KAYO! MAGSAMA NGA KAYONG DALAWA!!!" sabay walk-out. MGA TRAYDOR!!!
Dali dali naman akong hinila ni Lorenzo sa braso at iniharap skniya, "Laura, just please hear the WHOLE STORY!"
"NO! This video is enough!" For sure, magpapalusot lang yan -____-
I walked away but hinila niya pa din ako, nasa hallway kasi kami alangan namang mag away kami sa hallway dba? Kaya naman nandito kami sa backyard ng school.
"S-stop it! Nasasaktan ako ah!" sabay kalas sa kamay niya, ang higpit kasi ng hawak niya eh.
"Bat akala mo ba ikaw lang nasasaktan ah? AKO DIN LAURA! AKO DIN! You're acting like a child, you're so stubborn, you don't listen to anyone."
"Cause' there's nothing to listen to! It will all be lies!"
"Do you really believe that your best friend can do that you huh?! AND MOST OF ALL DO YOU REALLY BELIEVE THAT I CAN DO THAT TO YOU?! For pete's sake Laura! Hindi ako pumunta dito sa Canada para lang sundan ka, tapos gawin kang girlfriend tapos gawin kang play time! I sacrificed a lot for you.. Even if it means na magkagalit kami ng kapatid ko! Don't you trust me? Us? Ganyan na ba ka sarado ang utak mo para hindi mo malaman ang totoong dahilan ah?!"
Dere-deretso niyang sinabi yun, as in non stop. I was taken a back with his words. Maybe cause' its all true? Wala akong masabi, speechless ako. Sa sobrang speechless ko, luha na lang ang tanging nagiging response ko sa mga sinasabi niya.
"Maybe that's why we're falling apart, you don't trust me. Lagi ka na lang tamang hinala. Why? Is it not enough huh? Lahat ng effort ko, binigay ko na. Minsan nga sinasadya kong hindi sumama sayo sa lunch at makipagpraktis sknila kasi lagi mo na lang akong sinusumbatan, inaaway. Nakakasawa rin naman Laura. Hindi naman kita matiis, kasi mahal kita eh! Tingin mo ba play time lang tong nararamdaman ko sayo ah?! Pupunta ba ako dito sa Canada kung ganto lang hah?!"
My tears... It kept falling, non stop.
He held my shoulders, "Ano pa bang kulang Laura ah?! ANO PA BANG KELANGAN KONG PATUNAYAN SAYO AH?!"
Umiiling-iling lang ako, wala na naman siyang kailangan patunayan eh. Nakita at nasaksihan ko lahat ng effort niya. Masyado lang talaga akong nadala sa emosyon ko nung nakita ko yun.
I forgot the word, trust.
Binitawan niya ang shoulders ko, "Laura, you know that I love you too much.. But this... This relationship is not working..."
May kung anong dumurog sa puso ko nung narinig ko yung mga salitang yun galing skniya. Please? Please? Wag mong ituloy? <//3
"Laura... Kung puro pagmamahal na lang.. Wala ng tiwala? Ano na lang mangyayari sa relationship nato? Lagi na lang tayong nag-aaway, nagbabangayan. Nakakapagod na din.." He sighed.
I took every ounce of my courage to say these words, cause really, it breaks my heart, "A-are y-you b-breaki-------" pinutol niya yung sinabi ko.
"Yes, Laura.. I think we need this.. For our reationship.. Hindi sapat ang pagmamahal kung walang tiwala.. Minsan kahit sobrang mahal mo ang isang bagay, kailangan mo din itong pakawalan lalo na kung nagkakasakitan na kayo."
Pakawalan? Nagkakasakitan? Ganto ko na ba siya napapahirapan? Rumaragasa na ang mga luha ko, bakit ba lagi niya akong nakikitang umiiyak? Sobrang sakit lang. My heart's breaking into little pieces, gusto kong bawiin yung sinabi niya..
"P-pero m-mahal n-na m-mahal k-kita.." Nakatungo ako at pabulong kong sabi ito..
He suprisingly hugged me and whispered to my ears, "I love you too, Laura. Sobra sobra.. But I think we have to part ways for us to grow.. I will always love you, Laura.."
Then with that, he kissed my forehead and whispered again, "See you soon, Laura.."
And left.
I watched his back walking away from me. He left me here, standing and having my heart with him. I just can't believe na isang snap lang, we broke up. Seems like yesterday...
Luging lugi ako ngayong araw, nawalan ako ng minamahal ko, nawalan din ako ng best friend.
We did fell apart. </////3
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You just don't know how much it's hurt to be me. It's not easy like you thinking about.
Cez's POV
"I-I don't want to go home..." Sabi ko kay Jeremy, siya yung tao na iniharap ako skniya sabay tungo, "i don't feel like going home please..."
Hinawakan niya ang baba ko at iniharap skniya pagkatapos ngumiti. Pagkangiti naman niya eh, hinawakan niya ang kamay ko at hinila ako. Well, I'm in pain right now and so I don't care kung san niya ako dalin, kahit sa bar pa. Gusto ko lang mawala tong sakit nato. I feel like my heart has been stabbed for a million times.
At dahil nga nakatungo akong naglalakad, nagulat na lang ako nung pumasok kami sa isang building, "W-where are we?"
"In my pad."
0_________________0 bat sa lahat ng pagdadalan niya sken eh sa condo niya pa?! Like hello?! Buti pa sa bar eh, pero dito... /lunok!
I looked at him like why here look.
"HAHAHAHA. Don't worry, I'm not gonna rape you or something.. tssh.."
"Ahhh hehehe.." *shy smile*
"You are truly cute when you smile.." Then he pinched my cheeks..
"Aish! What was that for?"
"HAHAHA. I just can't resist your cuteness ya' know." *wink*
K. Did I just blush? What the hell, I'm heart broken here for pete's sake! Pssh -__-
Nasa elevator na kami, "Pffft.. HAHAHA.." tawa niya. Ang baliw neto eh, bigla bigla na lang tumatawa, like what the hell? -__- buti na lang at kami lang dalawa sa elevator kung di napagkamalan nato na takas sa mental.
"Is there even something funny?"
"HAHAHA.. yeah... Well, I was just amazed cause' I can still make your face go red..."
I just rolled my eyes, "yeah yeah...." *sacrasm*
Nung nasa pad na niya kami, isa lang ang masasabi ko; "Ang manly." Well, his pad is furnished then its theme is color black and white.
"Not bad.." Sabi ko
"You like my pad?" Tumango lang ako, "Well, you can live here.." *smirk*
"Psh. Seriously Jeremy.." *sarcasm*
"Hahahaha okay okay..." And then umupo na ako sa couch niya, "Elise is really something, she sent the video to everyone.."
"Why does she like seeing me suffer? I mean what did I do wrong to her?"
Then umupo na din siya, "Well, when we were at France, I knew from the start that she really likes Gabriel. And so she convinced her parents to make a deal with his parents to have them get married but Gab's family said no cause' they knew wouldn't approve to that.. But there's one who likes Elise for Gab, it was her Aunt. The two of them joined together so ya' know.. But they weren't successful. You know why right?"
"Seriously, no I don't.."
"Psh!" Sabay ginulo yung buhok ko, "Cause he really loves you that's why. He searched for you and he went here.. And yeah he was lucky cause' we didn't got back together.." Parang naging disappointed siya.
"Tsss. This is the only time that I will have the guts to ask you... So really... The first time we met, do you remember? You told me that I shouldn't be assuming and bla bla?" (chapter 1)
"HAHAHAHA yeah.. I was just being a dumbass that time.."
"Yeah, you got me confusing, cause' you told me you didn't like me then you asked me out and then... aish! Why are boys so complicated?"
"Hahaha. And girls too... Well, to be honest, I really like you and I just didn't like your loud friends--"
"You didn't like them but you hanged out with Jel?! Aish! haha.."
"Yeah, I just realized that she is a good company even Laura, they're good friends..."
"Well, we're not friends anymore.." *sigh*
"O'cmon! I know you three will be okay..."
I smiled and sighed. We just talked for hours and then I went home. He wanted to accompany me but I don't want to.. I want to be alone..
"Hays..." I sighed to myself and entered our house.
"Oh what's with sad face baby?" Kuya Carlos
"I'm really bad friend kuya.." I smiled, weakly.
"W-what? Anong nangyari?" And then he hugged me, "Alam mo baby, nandito kaming pamilya mo, lagi kaming nandito para sayo.. just tell us.."
"Traydor akong kaibigan, walang kwenta..."
"Shhhh. baby.." habang hinahaplos ang likod ko
Dumating naman si Ate Ysay, "Cez, umamin ka nga sken, kayo pa ba ni Gabriel?"
Umalis naman sa yakap si kuya at tumingin sken at naghihintay ng sagot, I just smiled, bitterly.
"Is that a yes baby?" Kuya
I just hugged him and cried, "Ang sakit sakit kuya!"
"DAMN! THAT BASTARD!!!" Sigaw niya
Bigla bigla naman lumabas si Kuya Carl sa banyo na tila parang naguguluhan sa sitwasyon, "Hala! Bat na naman naiyak ang baby namen?!"
Natatawa naman na sumagot si Ate Ysay, "So kelangan may shampoo ka pa sa ulo?! Pffft. HAHAHA!"
"Tsss! Nakakagulat kasi tong si twin eh! Makasigaw, wagas!"
"May puputulan tayo ng pagkalalaki twin!!" Kuya Carlos
"ANO?! BREAK NA KAYO NI GABRIEL?!" Kuya Carl
"Eh ano pa nga ba? Ano bang dahilan ah?" Ate Ysay
Nakayakap lang ako kay Kuya, "*sobs* He said he fell out *sobs* of love for *sobs* me..." para akong batang nagsusumbong, pero ang sakit lang talaga. Sobra. Yung taong pinakamamahal mo eh, nawalan na ng pagmamahal sayo at nakahanap na ng iba.
"FCK! ANONG KABADINGAN NA DAHILAN YUN?!" Kuya Carl
"Hinding hindi na talaga siya makakalapit sayo!" Kuya Carlos habang kinokomfort pa din ako
"Ah Carl, baka naman gusto mong magdamit na ano? Basang basa na yung sahig eh!" Ate Ysay
"Panira ka talaga ng dramatic scene ano?" Kuya Carl
Umiyak lang ako ng umiyak at kwinento ko ang buong pangyayari and then...
...
*yawn* Nagising na lang ako, t-teka? Sinong nagdala saken dito sa kama? Alam ko yakap yakap kong parang bata si Kuya Carlos tapos..
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"M-ma?" Nakatalikod kasi si mama sken may inaayos siya sa may comp. table ko
"Oh baby, you're awake na pala.." And then she went near me and kissed my forehead, "Sa sobrang kakaiiyak mo in your Kuya's arm, nakatulog ka na... Are you okay now? Namumugto yung mata mo.."
"Ma I don't feel like going school today.."
"It's okay.. Basta tomorrow pumasok ka ah, I'll just call your school baby ah?"
"Thanks ma.." nagpapasalamat talaga ako sa family ko dahil napakabait at supportive nila sken, atleast I know may nagmamahal pa sken. :)
...
*The Next Day*
Lunch na nga pala ngayon, and guess what? Nasa may locker lang ako nakaen. Ayokong pumuntang caf, alam ko naman na walang papansin sken doon eh. Forever Alone ika nga. Alam ko naman na masama pa din ang loob sken nila Jel at lahat ng nakakita nung video, malamang slut na ang tingin sken eh. *sigh*
Iniiwasan kasi ako nila Jel, may klase kasi kaming magkaklase kami, at tuwing titignan ko sila, titingin naman sila sa iba. Hays. Ewan ko ba, sobra sobra na talagang pasakit ang binibigay sken ni Elise. Hindi pa ba siya masaya? nakuha na niya si Gabriel pati ba naman mga kaibigan ko?
Yung feeling na tuwing titingin ka sknila eh, parang may gusto silang sabihin pero bigla na lang dedma. *sigh* Ang hirap kapag nawalan ka ng minamamahal, nawalan ka pa ng kaibigan.. :(
Para akong loner dito, kumakain mag isa, no scratch that, LONER nga ako. *sigh*
Wala akong gana kumain, kaya naman pinaglalaruan ko lang yun gamit ng fork ko. Nagulat naman ako nung may biglang may magsalita sa tabi ko, "Food is for eating not for playing..."
Pag tingala ko, si Jeremy pala. I just smiled at him weakly.
"What's up with that face?" tapos umupo siya sa tabi ko
"Why are you talking to the slut girl of the school?" Natatawa kong sabi, oo nga pala, pagkapasok na pagkapasok ko sa school eh may nakalagay sa pinto ng locker ko ng "SLUT" at tuwing pag may nadaan na estudyante eh nagbubulungan sila na bakit pa daw ako nagpakita despite nung nangyari na kalandian ko daw. Basta ang daming mga rumuors na ayoko na lang patulan. Lalo kong papatulan, lalong sasaya si Elise, ibig sabihin pikon ako. Ayoko na siyang pasayahin masyado sa misery ng buhay ko.
"Tch.. Affected?"
I just smiled at him, wala ako sa mood para makipagusap sa tao. Wala lang I just feel like this. *silence*
Ang tahimik.. Ayoko kasing magsalita eh, wala naman akong sasabihin.. Kaya sa sobrang katahimikan eh binasag niya rin to, "Cez! Ey! I'll be your buddy!"
napatingin naman ako skniya, "W-what?" :))
"Just a compensation of what I did to you a year ago... And since your friends are away for awhile.. I'll be your buddy.." *ngiting ewan*
"Psh! Are you insane?" natatawa kong sabi
"Hey! What's wrong with helping with the girl you love?! HAHA.." Dere-deretso niyang sabi
"W-what?" A-ano daw? 'with the girl you love?'
"Oooops! Did I just say something?" *innocent effect*
"Yeah with------------" sinubuan naman niya ako kaagad..
"HAHHAHAHAHA nevermind that! HAHA.." Nung nalunok ko na yung kinaen ko...
"WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT FOR?! HAHAHAHA!" Ako
"Hahaha just don't mind what I say, okay?"
May dumaan, "Wow she's really a slut.. She replaces boys like changing clothes.. tsktsk.."
*sigh*
"Don't mind them buddy... I know they're more sluts than you do..." *wink*
"Psh, I think I'll be used to it..." ... "And hey.. buddy?"
"Yeah, that's what I call you, cute isn't?" *ngiting ewan*
"Hahaha you look like a kid.."
"I am a kid... well a teenager...makulit me!"
"HAHAHAHAHAH MAKULIT?!"
"Yeah... Handsome!" *pogi sign* psh! HAHAHAHAHA
"Pfffft. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Pabo..." :)) [ pabo= stupid (korean word) ]
"W-wait what?!"
"HAHAHAHA nothing... yeah yeah you are MAKULIT!" :))))) Ang alam niya pa rin pala ng makulit eh gwapo, tsss. naniwala talaga siya, hindi man lang niya sinearch sa google eh. tsktsk. Oh well! yaan na naten gusto ko siya na mismo ang makaalam :))))
Simula ng araw na yun, naging buddy ko na siya. Ang tawagan nga namin eh, bud/buddy. Hindi na rin niya nasasamahan ang mga kaibigan niya, naboboringan din daw kasi siya at puro daw kalokohan ang topic nila.
Lagi kaming magkasama, iniintay niya ako sa baba ng bldg. namen at sabay na pumapasok. Siya din ang kasama ko tuwing lunch at uwian. Dalawang linggo na ganto ang set up naming dalawa. I really enjoy his company. Napapatawa naman niya ako napapasaya. Hey, wala nang kilig or whatsoever ah, friends na talaga kami niyan.
Shmpre makakaligtas ba kami sa chismis? NAH. Ang harot harot ko daw, kasi nga Gabriel tapos si Lorenzo tapos ngayon naman daw si Jeremy.. ULIT! PSH >.<mga echosera sila..
Nandito kami Business Class ko and yeah kaklase ko si Jeremy.. Madalas kasing hindi pumapasok si Gab sa klase namen kaya naman nandito siya sa upuan neto..
Nagtatawanan kami ni Jeremy, hindi pa naman kasi start ng klase ng biglang may boses na parang galit, "Excuse me, that's my seat Rodriguez.."
Napatingala naman kami ni Jeremy.. /gulp. Si Gabriel?
"Wow, what a miracle, you went to this class huh?" Jeremy
"And what is it to you? Can you just go back to your seat?!" Asar na sabi nito
I just smiled at Jeremy and signed him to go back.. "Okay bro.." sabi neto kay Gab
"Don't call me bro, we're not brothers." Masungit na sabi neto, wow lang ha! Meron ka lang koya?! :))
"Woah chill.."
Pero kumunot lang ang noo nito, at nagbasa lang ng libro..
Nagulat naman ako kay Jeremy at tumabi naman siya sa may kabila ko nakipagpalit siya sa isa kong kaklase, bali ganto ang seats namin..
'CM' (clasmmates)
Teacher's Desk
CM-CM CM-CM CM-CM
CM-CM Gab-Ako Jeremy-CM
CM-CM CM-CM CM-CM
Kahit na may aisle pagitan smen eh nakakapagusap pa din kami. Nagtatawanan kami ng biglang.. *BLAAAAAAAAG* may pumalo sa table ng malakas..
"Mr. Gabriel, why did you bang your table? Something wrong?" Tanong nung teacher
"Yes Ms. these two are so noisy.. I can't concentrate well..." Masungit niyang sabi
"Mr. Jeremy and Ms. Cezzainne?" Tanong ng teacher skniya
"Yes Ms. it's annoying..."
"Oh... Oh yeah Jeremy.. Is that even your sit.. Tch! Go back to your seat..."
"But Ms----"
"Just go back to your seat! Ang ingay ingay niyo.." Iritang sabi ni Gab, aba't nag tagalog pa ang mokong -.-
"just go back.." bulong ko, nakita ko naman na nakasmirk si Jeremy...
"Oh okay Ms. I'll go back to my seat, someone's jelous.. Bye bud.." *smirk sabay kindat sken*
Nagtilian naman ang mga kaklase ko, psh.. selos? Like yeah na mangyayari yun, hindi na ako mahal niyan.. Pero how I wish, nararamdaman niya yun.. *sana* :(
*SCHOOL BELL*
Lunch na! :DD Dali dali naman akong tumayo at pinuntahan ang buddy ko, "Bud!"
"Psh.. Your ex could kill me just by looking ya' know.."
Napatingin naman ako sa direksyon ni Gab at kitang kita sa mukha niya na parang sasabog na siya, oh anong problema niya? ?_______?
"Nah... Don't mind him.. Let's go?" Hinila ko na ang buddy ko at lumabas na kami.. Pero bigla namang may humila sa wrist ko, napatalikod ako para tignan kung sino.
"Gabriel?"
"Let's talk.."
"No.. There's nothing to talk about.. Let go!"
"Yeah there is..."
"I said let go! ano ba nasasaktan ako.." Humigigpit kasi yung hawak niya sken..
"You heard her Gab, let go!" Si Buddy
"Don't interfere Rodriguez, it's none of your business.."
Bigla naman akong hinila ni Jeremy mula skniya at pinunta niya sa may likuran niya, "I have the right to, and you don't.. She's my business now.. So shoo away Gab.." Sabay talikod at hinawakan na ako sa kamay at naglakad na kami.
Bigla naman na may nagtap kay Jeremy causing him na lumingon and then *PUNCH*
"GABRIEL STOP IT!!!" Pinagsusuntok niya si Jeremy..
Tumayo kaagad si Jeremy at pinagsusuntok din siya, "Bud stop it!" Pigil ko skniya. Hinawakan ko yung braso niya at kinalog to, "Stop it bud..."
"Don't you ever do that again to me nor to her Gab! Or else it'll much be worse than that.."
"You're fast replacing me huh? Maybe what they say it's true.. You're a sl---" Sabi niya habang pinapahid ang dugo niya sa labi niya
Is he insane or what?! Siya tong una akong palitan, GHAAAD!
"YOU BASTARD!" Susuntukin sana siya ulit netong si Jeremy pero pinigilan ko siya.
"Huh what? Isn't true?! She's a slut."
*PUNCH* Sinuntok siya ni Jeremy, "BUD!" sabay hawak sa mga braso niya.
"Don't you ever call that to her!! You're the one who replace who first? And now look who's talking! Wow Gabriel! You are really something!"
"Bud..." hinigpitan ko ang paghawak sa braso niya as a sign na umalis na tayo..
"No wait.. I have something to tell him Cez, you are a dumbass you know that?! You left her with a girl who's insane?! Really?! You are a bastard! You played and made her life miserable. And I promised you that the day you mess up with her feelings again, I will be there for her and take care of her. I will fill up all those things that you weren't able to give. I won't allow you near her again! I won't and I will never let you have her again..."
Gabriel smirked, "Like that will happen, she loves me too much.." ANG KAPAL LANG NG MUKHA NIYA! HOW DARE HE... pero totoo naman kasi...
"I----" Magsasalita sana si Jeremy pero pinigilan ko na siya.
"But then it's not impossible for me to fall in love with a person who made me feel that I am a girl that deserves to be loved.. Don't be so confident Gabriel, one of these days, you might hear the news.. "The slut girl has completely fallen out of love with his bastard ex and fell in love with her prince charming..." I confindently said, kahit alam kong nowhere near na mangyayari yun... I just love him too much and I just can't let go..
Tila nagulat naman siya sa sinabi ko, sana naramdaman niya yung sakit na ipagpalit ko siya sa iba. Kasi ngayon, kung ano mang sakit o kung meron man siyang nararamdaman eh mas higit pa dun ang nararamdaman ko.
hinawakan ko naman sa kamay si Jeremy as a sign na umalis na tayo dito. Kaya naman naglakad na kami papalayo at bago pa kaming tuluyan lumayo eh biglang nagsalita si Gabriel..
"You must be really happy now.." yung boses niya ang tame, at para bang nasasakntan siya.. I didn't bother looking back at him.. Cause' my heart knows.. Skniya lang ako sasaya.. Ayoko na din siyang nakikitang nasasaktan, kung oo man. Baka kasi hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili ko at yakapin ko siya.. Ang hirap at ang sakit lang.
A tear fell down from eyes. His words hit me, no.. No, I am not happy.. This heart will only beat for you.. Gagabb..
When you left and walked away, what really hurt was how you madeit look so easy... like I never meant anything to you. So now, I will do the same..
CHAPTER 42:Goodbyes doesn't mean it's the ending, it may also be a beginning.
Cez's POV
*GRADUATION DAY*
"KUYA! Dalian mo malalate tayo, tinalo mo pa ako sa sobrang tagal mag ayos!" I said impatiently.
"Oy twin! Bakla ka ba ah? Tagal eh.." Kuya Carl
"Eto na eto na, tsss! Kailangan kasi mas gwapo ang Kuya ngayon lalo na't graduation ngayon ni baby girl namin.." sabay tap sa ulo ko.
"Wahahaha di hamak naman kasi na mas gwapo ako sayo!" Kuya Carl
"Ang kapal lang ng mukha mo twin.." Kuya Carlos
"Aish! Tara na nga.. Hmp!" Sabay lumabas na kami ng bahay, nasa baba na kasi sila momy nagaantay sa may labas ng bldg.
*enters car* "Oh bat ang tagal niyo ata?" Daddy
"Itanong niyo kay twin kung bakit.." Kuya Carl
"Tss! Oo na oo na, ako na ang makupad.." Kuya Carlos
"Buti naman at tanggap mo..." Ako, "KYAAAA! Mashakit!" kurutin ba naman ako sa pisnge
"AYAN! Sira na tuloy blush on ko.." *pout*
"bakit sino ba pinapagandahan mo dun baby?" Kuya Carlos
"Wala..."
"Weh?" Silang dalawa, aba't tignan mo tong dalawang makulit na kuya ko -____-
"Wala nga eh.. KULET!"
"Asuuuus! Ehhh hindi ba yung "JEREMY" na yun?" Sabay tawa nila ni Kuya
"Ang kukulet, kaibigan ko lang yun, buddy kumbaga.."
"KA-I-BIGAN kamo!" sabay apir nila >.< seriously, may mga tama talaga tong kapatid ko. HAYS! umirap na lang ako, sayang lang ang boses ko kakakausap sknila, effortless lang din naman.
"Ayy nga pala nasan si Ysay?" Mommy
"Ayun nandun sa ka-ibigan niya..." Kuya Carlos
"Ahh. AYY nga pala, Jeremy gave these flowers to you.." Sabay may kinuha si mommy sa may baba at ibinigay sken. Nakita ko naman na nakatingin sken si dad from the mirror.
At nakita ko naman ang mga reaksyon nila Kuya, WHAT THE?! Bakit ganon naman sila makatingin sken? -_____- parang natatae na ewan, kinikilig ba sila?! PSH >.<
"Dad.. Don't look at me like that.." Nilagay ko sa may lap ko yung mga flowers.
"Seems my daughter is---"
"Cut it out dad, no.." Sabay tingin sa may bintana... These past few days, inaasar nila ako lagi kay Jeremy, pero wala talaga eh. Siya pa din kasi..
...
"Now, for our valedictorian, Laura Jane Cortez, for her graduation speech." *palakpakan*
"FILIPINO! FILIPINO! WOOOO" sigawan ng mga Pilipino, haha nakakatawa lang :))
"Good Morning everyone and Happy Graduation to us seniors!" panimula ni Laura, "All of you must be thinking that 'hey this girl is nerd, a bookworm' well I ain't. I'm just a simple, normal girl who's living a student, like you. I'm giving this speech not because I want to brag that I'm the valedictorian, but to represent all the students that have worked hard for this school year. We, maybe, sometimes, naughty, goofing around, and making our teachers gone crazy but, inside of us, there will always be worries. Worries that we might not pass, worries that we might not graduate. What is a student, without a sacrifice right? So congratulations to us seniors! Thank you to the students who welcomed me in my first day of school here, thank you for not being a racist! *nagtawanan* and KUDOS TO ALL FILIPINOS THERE! *nagsigawan yung mga Pilipino* . I will miss this school which has given me a lot of memories to keep..." She started tearing up...
"The education and the discipline that you have taught us.. Well except for somebody... *sarcasm sabay tingin kay Elise, lahat naman nagtawanan sabay lumihis ulit ng tingin si Laura at ngumiti* And as every commencement speech, they would always say, this is not the end, hence, this is just a beginning, a new chapter in our lives. It's not always about studying and marks, it's also about knowing life and experiencing every moment of it. Knowledge only shows of how you know as a person, but experience shows of who you really are as a person. I say thank you to all the staff, teachers, parents, and mostly to God. Once again, congratulations to us seniors! We completed and survived one of the chapters in our lives. Let's fill our next chapters with a roller coaster experience. I, Laura Jane Cortez, with my co-graduates are ending this chapter and moving to the next, happily. Thank you." *bow* At lahat naman kami nagpalakpakan, may mga tumayo pa nga eh.
"THAT'S THE SENIOR POWER!" Sigaw nung isa, lahat naman nagtawanan at nagpalakpakan.. Nagsimula nang magtawag ng pangalan para umakyat dun sa stage para kunin yung diploma, "Cezzainne Martin.."
Tumayo na ako at naka-abang na sken ang parents ko sa may stage, kasama ko sila kasi ako ang Salutatorian.
"We're very proud of you baby." Bulong sken ni dady, teary eyed pa nga siya eh, awww :')
"Go Cezzainne!" May sumigaw na lalaki na Pilipino, si Marc. Hahaha. Mga pangtritrip nila talaga, mamimiss ko yun.
Bumaba na din kami ng stage, I kissed my parents sa cheeks, "Thank you po." :')
They hugged me. :'')
And as we throw our graduation caps in the air, our graduation song is sang by the choir.
I Will Remember You by Sarah McLachlan
"I will remember you, will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by,
Weep not for the memories
Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad.
How clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun
Want to feel your warmth upon me
I want to be the one..."
May pinakita na sa screen, mga memorable pictures..
Nagulat naman ako nung lapitan ako ni Jeremy, "Congrats buddy! Hug?" I smiled at him and the hugged me, "Are you really sure?"
Tumulo naman ang luha ko, "Yes, yes I'm sure that I'm going.."
May bigla namang nag tap sa balikat ko kaya umalis ako sa yakap ko kay Jeremy..
Sila Jel at Laura.. tumingin naman ako kay Jeremy. Bumulong siya sken, "Atleast talk to them before you leave." *ngiti* sabay alis
Then I smiled at them, oh my this song makes me cry..
"I will remember you, will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much to deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard .."
"KYAAAAAAAAAAAAA!" sabay yakap sken ni Jel, "Ang gaga mo talaga! Bakit hindi mo sinabi na aalis ka na ha? Ang sadista mo talaga! MAMIMISS KITA!" Umiiyak na si Jel
"Mas m-mamimiss ko ikaw..."
"E-eh ako d-di mo mamimiss?" Napakalas naman ako sa yakap ni Jel, nakita kong umiiyak na din si Laura.. SHET NAIIYAK AKO :''(
"L-laura!" tumakbo siya sken at niyakap ako, "S-sorry kung hindi kita pinaniwalaan agad.. Nauna ang mga emosyon ko eh.. Sorry... Sorry k--------"
"Shhh..." sabay haplos sa likod niya..
"Will you forgive me Cez?" :''(
"I understand you, ano ka ba! Dati pa kita pinatawad.." Umalis ako sa pagkakayakap namin, "Sorry din nga pala sa nangyari sainyo ni Lorenz..."
"Ay nako! Magkakabalikan din yang dalawa! Tsss!" Sabi ni Jel sabay niyakap kaming dalawa, "Mamimiss ka namin ni Laura, Cez..." :'''(
"Mas mamimiss ko kayong dalawa.." :''(
"I'm so afraid to love you
But more afraid to lose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness
Deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me life..."
Nag-iiyakan kaming tatlo dun habang nakatingin sa screen, madami dami din kasi ang mga pictures namin dun sa video. Meron pa nga kaming picture na lahat ng Pilipino kumakain sa caf, ang saya lang namin tignan. :')
"I will remember you, will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much to deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard .."
We hugged each other again, "Best friends forever?" Jel
We nodded and hugged once more again. :''(
It is true that you can't stay mad at your best friends and no matter challenges we go through, will always be tough and be with each other. No distance can tear a friendship a part. :'')
At shmpre mawawala ba ang picture time?! Shmpre hindi! Picture dun, picture dito. "Wow, ang tatlong mangkukulam, bati bati na.." Pangaasar ni Kuya Carlos
"Ang laking ganda naman namin dun Kuya!" Jel
"Tsss. Osge na, picture na.. Bukas na flight nyan!" Kuya Carlos
"EEEEH KUYA NAMAN! Wag mo nang ipaalala, naiiyak ako!" *pout* Jel
"Osge umiyak ka, papanget ka sa picture!" Kuya Carlos
*pout* Jel
"Okay, 1. 2. 3. SAY MANGKUKULAM!" Kuya Carlos
"KUYAAAAAAAAAAAAA!" Kaming tatlo.
*click*
"KYAAAA! Mukha akong mangkukulam nga doon!" Jel
"Should I take a picture of Cez and Jeremy?" Parinig ni Kuya Carlos, bigla kasing dumaan sa harapan namin sila Jeremy.
"AYIEEEEEEEEEEEE!" sabi nung dalawa.
"Pssssh!"
"As a remembrance, atleast?" sabi ni Kuya na pumayag ka na look.
"Oh well, we're buds anyways! So buddy?" sabay tingin kay Buddy
Ngumiti siya, "I thought you won't ask.."
Umirap lang ako pero shmpre in a pabiro way *3*
"1 2 3.. SAY I LOVE YOU!"
"I love you..." Jeremy
0_____0 nabigla naman ako kaya napatingin ako skniya.
*CLICK*
"YOOOOWWWWN! Good shot! Should I switch now to photography?" Pagmamayabang ni Kuya Carlos
"AYIEEEEEEEEEEE!!" Lahat sila, isama mo pa sila mommy, psh.. :)))
Napatingin naman ako dun sa may gilid..
Nakita kong nakatingin sa dereksyon namin si Gabriel, I smiled at him, but he looked away and then talked with Elise. Alam kong kunwariang ngiti at mga tawa lang yun..
*faint smile* 'Just one last look at your face, Gabriel. I hope you'll be happy.. You must be happy..' I say in my mind.
Nabalik naman ako sa realidad ng hawakan ako nila Jel, "Uyy Cez, diba last day mo na ngayon at bukas na alis mo? Sleep over kami sainyo. Watcha think?"
"Ahh o sige ba!" :DDD Papalabas na kami auditorium, lumingon ako ulit sa dereksyon niya..
I smiled, "Goodbye Gabriel.."
CHAPTER 43:
Tell the person you love, that you love them before it's too late. Don't live with regrets.
Cez's POV
"UWAAAA! Mamimiss kita ng sobra sobra sobra Cez..." Iyak ni Jel habang yumayakap siya sken, nasa airport na kasi kami, isang oras na lang, goodbye Canada na ako at hello Philippines na ako. Hays.
Hinaplos haplos ko yung likod ni Jel, naiiyak kasi ako skniya eh, "Ingat ka dun ah? Lagi kang magoonline sa skype huh? Kwentuhan mo ako kapag may bago ka nang love life!"
*PAK* Binatukan ko nga ng mahina, "Puro ka na lang love life, tsktsk.."
"EEEEEH!! Mamimiss talaga kita!" Yakap niya ulit sken..
"EHEEEEM! May isa pa pong kaibigan dito oooh? Hello, I exist!" Sabat ni Laura
"Che! Moment muna namin to Cez, uwaaaaaa!" Jel
"Pag bilang ko ng tatlo Jel, mababatukan kita sige.." panakot ni Laura, napatawa naman ako, sadista pa rin talaga tong si Laura
"HMP! Sadist!" Sabi ni Jel, sabay alis sa pagkayakap namin, si Laura naman ang yumakap sken, "Sorry.. ulit..."
"Laura, okay na yun sken, forget the past na, mamimiss kita.."
"Mamimiss din kita kapwa sadista, wala na akong kasama sa pangbubully kay Jel.."
"KYAAA! Ako na naman!" Sabat ni Jel na nakatayo lang dun at pinupunasan ang mga luha niya.
"Sana maka move on ka na dun ah? Padalhan mo din kami ng Jollibee!" Masayang sabi ni Laura pero ramdam ko naluluha na siya, "Wag mo kaming kalimutan ah? Bisita ka dito..." And yun na nga, ramdam ko na ang pagtulo ng mga luha niya.
Kaya ako din, umiiyak na. Nakisali naman samin si Jel, "UWAAAAA! Ang sadista niyo talaga, isali niyo naman ako!" Tapos nakiyakap na din siya
Pagkatapos ng iyakan session naming tatlo, eh umupo muna kami at naghintay para sa flight ko. Nagkwentuhan lang kami dun.. Nung 30 mins. na kami dun eh...
"Omo!!" 0__________0 *sabay tapik sken ni Jel*
Naguusap kasi kami ni Laura, kaya hindi ko siya mapansin.. "Eh a-ano ba yun?" Hindi pa din ako nakatingin.
"Si!!!!" This time, si Laura na ang nagsabi.
Napatingin naman ako, pero hindi ko mamukhaan gawa nakatakip ang mukha niya ng mga bulaklak..
"Si???"
"OM EEEEM GEEEE!" Jel
Palapit na siya ng palapit at kumakabog ang puso ko, shemay! Ayoko ng intense! Si-sino ba kasi to?! AISH! Hindi kaya si? PERO HINDI! Imposible naman!
Kinakalog kalog ako ni Jel at ako naman eh hindi mapakali..
"SUPRISE!" sabi niya.
"KYAAAAAAAAAAAA!" Tili ni Jel
0__________________0
"Disappointed much?" Bulong ni Laura sken.
"H-hindi noh...Asa pang dumating yun..." Hays.. Buti na lang at hindi ako nag expect, kung hindi.. Ang sakit na naman sa puso.. <//3
"Psh, k. sabi mo eh!" And the she shrugged her shoulders.
"What's up with your reaction, you don't like it?"
"PSH! Yeah! you really suprised me there!" Sabay tayo ko at kinuha ko yung mga bulaklak, eh di sino pa ba to? Malamang si..
"Wow Jeremy, you really like my sister eh?" Kuya Carlos
Nginitian lang siya ni Jeremy.
"Well, silence and smile means yes!" Kuya Carl
Psh mga baliw talaga tong mga kapatid ko -___-
Nagtawanan at nagkwentuhan lang naman kami dun, inaasar pa nga ako nila Kuya kay Jeremy eh, aish nako! Hindi talaga ako makakatakas sa mga Kuya kong yun -___- :)) Hayy mamimiss ko sila..
"Calling all passengers going to Manila, Philippines is now boarding.." Nung pagkarinig na pagkarinig ko nyan, lalo akong nalungkot. WOO! This is it..
Isa-isa na nila akong niyakap, starting from my dad, "Ingat ka baby dun ah? After 1 month, bisitahin ka namin dun.. Love you.." sabay halik saken sa forehead.
Momy, "Baby, tawag ka lang pag may problema ah? Take care. I love you!" *halik sa forehead +hug*
Kuya Carlos && Kuya Carl, "Ingat ka dun baby! Sabihin mo lang smen kapag may nangbubully sayo! Reresbakan namin agad ni Twin! Mahal ka namin baby, ingat ka ah?" *sabay nila akong niyakap*
Niyakap ko na din yung dalawa kong lokaret na kaibigan na currently na umiiyak. Aww, naluluha tuloy ako.. :')
Lastly, si Jeremy..
"I'm gonna miss you.." *sabay yakap sken*
"Me too! Thank you very much buddy, for everything..."
"Let go now, I might take you away from here and never let you go.."
Nung pagkasabi niya nun, umalis na ako sa pagkakayakap ko skniya, "Pssh! Haha.." Nagtapat kasi siya sken na mahal niya daw ako, pero alam niya naman kung sino talaga ang laman ng puso ko. Natutuwa ako skniya kasi nirerespeto niya ang desisyon ko at nanatili siyang nanjan para sken..
*FLASHBACK*
Before graduation, inaya niya akong mag gala gala sa park, dahil nabubugnot daw siya sa pad niya.
"AHUUUM! You're 5 minutes late Mister!" Susunduin niya daw kasi ako sa lobby ng bldg. namen, ang usapan kasi 10:30 pero 10:35 na nung dumating siya, 5 minutes late pa din noh, hindi dapat pinagiintay ang babae.
"Sorry bud.." *sad face*
"Nah.. That won't do bud..." NAKO WAG KANG MAG PACUTE! KASI GWAPO KA :))) lels. Ang landi lang eh :)))
"Awww. I'm really sorry bud, hmm? What could I do for you to forgive me?" *pout*
"Hmmm? Lemme think..." *sabay may sign na nagiisip*
"Uhm? How about ice cream!!" Sabi niya
"Hmmm? Not a bad idea... so let's go? Psh! Never be late again, okay?!"
"Yes, mam.." *death glare* "I mean yes bud!"
Naglakad naman kami papuntang ice cream parlor. Nung nandito na kami, "Hi Mam and Sir, how may I help you?" *sabay twinkle twinkle ng mata nung cashier registar*
ABA'T!! Makatingin kay Jeremy ah! Psh :))))) Hmmm...
"Omo! Hey look at you BOYFIE!" sabay tingin kay Jeremy, "You're melting..."
"Huh?" ?___? confused na tanong niya
"Cause' the way she.." *sabay tingin dun sa cashier registrar*, "looks at you.. You're better than the ice cream that melts.. TSKTSK..." *smirk*
Nakita ko naman na napangisi si Jeremy, psh! :))) Namumutla naman yung babae, "Ahmm? Are you okay Ms? Can you take now our orders?" Tapos ngumiti ako ng nakakaloko skniya :DD
"A-aaah y-yes.." utal niya sabi, psh!!
At ayun na nga sinabi na namin yung order namin, nung binibigay naman niya smen yung order niya, halatang halata na hiyang hiya siya. WAHAHAHAHA! Ang sarap tumawa :)))))
Nakahanap na kami ng upuan ni Jeremy, "Tsss. Boyfie?! You are really something bud.." sabay abot niya sken nung ice cream ko.
"HAHAHAHAHA! Her face is priceless! Really! HAHAHAHAHA..." tawa ko
"Poor her... She must have been stunned by my presence!"
"Conceited much, bud?"
"Nah. It's the truth..." *sabay pogi sign* "Ma-ku-lit me.."
"WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!" lalo akong napatawa, paano ba naman, hindi niya pa din alam ang meaning ng MAKULIT! :)))))))) Hay nako :))))) Hayaan na nga :))))
"Hey... It's trueee!!!"
"Yeah, yeah...."
"You really like trippin' ah?"
"Well, that's me!" I proudly said..
"That's why I love you..." A-ano daw?!?!
"W-what?!" nabibingi ata ako -____-
"Do I have to repeat myself?" *dug dug dug dug dug dug*
*inom ng tubig* "W-whaaaat?!" 0_______________________________0 "D-did you just confessed to me?"
"WAHAHAHAHA. You are really Cezzainne..:" Tapos he pinched my cheeks, "Yes... I really love a girl like you..." sabay bitaw din..
"EEEEEHHH?!"
"Psh.. Yeah yeah I know.. We're just friends, and that's all we're gonna be.. No need to lecture me on that..." lumungkot naman ang boses niya, haaaay! Ikaw kasi sinayang mo yung chance mo eh, ayan tuloy.. Tsktsk..
I smiled at him, "Thank you Jeremy, for understanding me.. For all the things." I said to him wholeheartedly.
He smiled at me also, "Anything for the girl I love.."
*END OF FLASHBACK*
Sobra sobra talaga ang pasasalamat ko kay Jeremy. Siya kasi yung nanjan nung iniwan nila akong lahat. I really thank him at hindi niya ako iniwan. :)
Nag bye na ako saknilang lahat.. I smiled at them and I started to walk..
"TAKE CARE CEZ! BYEEEEIII!" Sigaw naman ni Jel, lumingon ako and then I smiled..
Kaya din ako lumingon, hoping na makakahabol siya at kahit isang sulyap lang makita ko siya.. Bago pa ako tuluyan maglakad patalikod sknila, hinanap ko muna siya sa buong airport, *sigh* wala talaga.
Binalik ko ang tingin ko sknila and then I flashed a smile and waved to them.. Tumalikod na ako at naglakad..
"Goodbye Gabriel..." I smile, weakly.
I started walking nang may biglang tumawag ng pangalan ko...
"AINNEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!" *dug dug dug dug dug dug*
Napalingon naman ako.. 0__________0
"G-gagabb?!" Hingal na hingal siya, tapos lumapit siya sken at bigla akong niyakap.
"Ang sadista mo talaga Ainne, aalis ka ba na hindi ka man lang magpapaalam sken ah?"
My tears started to run down to my face, "G-Gab..." He hugged me tightly...
"Marami pa akong sasabihin sayo, mga kailangan mong malaman.. Ainne.."
"CEZ AND GAB!!!!!!!!!!!" May suimgaw...
Nang bigla may *BAAAAAAAAANNGG* Nagpaputok ng baril...
"CEZZAINNE!! GABRIEEEEEL!!!!" Tawag ng family ko..
"Gabriel?!?!" May dugo sa likuran niya.. At unti unti na siyang bumababa mula sa pagkakayakap namin..
"GAGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAB!!!!" Sigaw ko <///3
Up next: EPILOGUE
Cez's POV
Nandito kami ngayon sa Riverdale Field para mapanood ang Frisbee game nila. Napilit lang ako nila Jel kasi kasali din ang kanyang secret crush, hindi si John ah. Wahahaha. Ang landi talaga nung babaeng yun eh. Haha. Kailangan din daw kasi ng support ng team eh, kaya pumunta kami.
Ang sakit ng mata ko, more like puso ko.
It crushes into tiny pieces.. It is indeed true, ang sakit sakit kapag nakikita mo na ang taong mahal mo eh, may mahal nang iba. FCKSHT lang. Ang sakit sakit. Nagsisi akong sumama dito.
Well I just saw them hugged each other. Gagabb, oh I mean Gabriel also kissed Elise on her cheeks before entering the game. And it breaking my damn heart.
Fck, my tears.. TAE NAMAN OHH -___- Alam kong masakit yung nakikita ko pero tingin pa din ako ng tingin. I can't resist. Ugh, gustong gusto ko siyang agawin kay Elise at yakapin at halikan.. PERO SHT! Hindi na pwede.. :''(
Yes, we broke up.. For some goddamn reason. :''(
"Hala Cez, okay ka lang ba?" Jel
*BATOK* "Shonga ka talaga Jellyn!! Malamang hindi, makita mo ba naman ang taong mahal mo ng may kayakap na iba tapos okay lang?! Tss. Kasalanan mo to eh! Kung hindi mo dinala edi sana----"
"It's nobody's fault Laura, hindi naman alam ni Jel na nandito yan eh. Hehe. Okay lang ako..." I gave them a smile, a weak one.
"Ang masokista mo lang Cez, wow lang.." Laura
"YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHH!" Nagsisigawan yung mga tao, naka 1 point na kasi yung school namin..
<///////////////3 ASDHJKL :'''(
Sa Frisbee kasi may line 1 at line 2, kapag may nakascore na, magpapalit na ng line or team players. Pagkapunta na pagkapunta ni Gabriel dun sa bench ng team eh..
"YIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!" Yeah, nagsisigawan sila.. Hinalikan kasi ni Elise si Gagabb, ugh!! GABRIEL NGA EH -____- <//3
Hays, ganto pala ang pakiramdam hanggang pinapanood mo silang sobrang saya at sweet. Parang sinaksak ang puso ko ng labing limang kutsilyo.
While looking at them... Naiisip ko kung bakit niya ako pinagpalit at iniwan... Mas maganda, mas sexy, mas maganda ang accent niya.. Hindi ko nga lang sure sa ugali.. Pero totoo nga, mas bagay sila. Kaya niya ba ako iniwan? Cause' I was never enough for him? <//3
Titig na titig lang ako sknila, nang biglang nagtama ang mga mata namin ni Gabriel. Bigla naman niya tong iniwas at niyakap niya si Elise. Wow, nanadya lang? Ganyan ba siya ka proud at ka saya kapag si Elise ang kasama niya at hindi ako?
Hindi ko na kaya ang mga nangyayari, feeling ko anytime magbbreakdown ako dito. Nanghihina ako. Parang unti unting nagiging jelly ang mga paa ko..
Dahil sa hindi ko na kaya ito, "Jel, Laura ah eh u-una na ako... May tatapusin p-pa kasi ako eh.. S-sige.." Then I smiled. :D // :''(
"Kaya mo bang umuwing mag isa?" Jel
Tumango ako at ngumiti, "Yeah, kelangan kong mapagisa eh.. He he s-sige.." sabay alis na.. Tinawag nila ako ulit pero di na ako lumingon.. Ang gusto ko lang mangyari ay lumayo na dito.
Hindi na din napigilan ang mga luha kong lumabas, masyado na akong nasasaktan sa mga nangyari. Feeling ko sasabog na ang puso ko sa sobrang bigat.. Mula noong break up eh hindi pa ako nakakaiyak ng ayos. Hindi pa kasi ganuung nag sisink in sken ang mga pangyayari. Ngayon pa lang..
Tumawid na ako ng bridge.. Hindi ko namalayan na nasa Riverdale Farm na pala ako. Sa sobrang kakaiyak ko eh hinayaan ko na lang ang mga paa ko na dalin ako kung saan man. Libre naman entrance dito eh kaya pumasok ako at malamang may mga hayop doon at buti na lang nakakita ako ng mahabang upuan dun at umupo. Katapat niya yung mga kabayo.
Hay buti pa sila tahimik at masaya ang buhay..
Sobrang sakit na malaman na ang taong mahal mo ay nagsawa na sa pagmamahal mo at nahulog nang tuluyan sa iba. Hindi ko naman alam na masyado siyang nalunod sa pagmamahal ko at nasalo ng iba.
*FLASHBACK*
Yakap yakap niya ako, "Cezzain, let's break up..."
No.. Hindi.. T-tama ba yung mga naririnig ko.. H-hindi.. Si Gagabb ba to?!
Napakalas ako sa pagkakayakap niya at may hindi maintindihang mukha.. "Gagabb.. Don't try to joke me.. It's our anniversary.." I tried composing myself, smiling. kahit sa loob loob ko eh halos hindi na tumibok ang puso ko nung marinig ko yung mga salitang yun..
Hinawakan niya ako sa mga braso ko, "No Cezzainne.. I'm not joking you.." sabay tungo, "This relationship is not working out anymore.. And I'm effin tired.. Let's just end this.."
Napahawak ang mga kamay ko sa bibig ko. H-hindi.. Nangyayari ba talaga to?! Nakikipagbreak na ba talaga sken si Gagabb?!
LOADING..
LOADING..
LOADING..
"E-end?!" Mahina kong sabi, naiiyak na talaga ako.
Tumango siya, "We're just hurting each other...I'm tired.."
"HURTING?!" Bulalas ko, hindi ko na kaya to.. "DO YOU THINK THAT YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE WHO'S TIRED HUH?! DO YOU THINK THAT I'M NOT HURTING HUH?! DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH IT HURTS RIGHT NOW HUH?! GAGABB! YOU DON'T HAVE ANY IDEA HOW MY HEART BREAKS NOW!! YOU DON'T HAVE AN IDEA!" Unti unting rumaragasa ang mga luha ko..
"TELL ME! TELL ME IS THAT THE ONLY REASON?! YOU PROMISED ME GAGABB! WHAT HAPPENED?!" :''( <///3
"I've... fallen inlove with someone..else.." sabay tungo niya
<//////////////////3 Nanlaki ang mata ko at hindi ko ma-describe yung nararamdaman ko. Huh?! Ano daw?! nainlove na siya sa iba?! EFFIN! Ang sakit lang...
"I-inlove?! P-pero?! P-paano?!" Naguguluhan kong sabi, "Akala k-ko ba m-mahal m-mo ko?! You promised me..." Gulong gulo na ako, hindi ko na alam ang kakahantungan neto..
Ayaw niyang sumagot.. nakatungo lang siya.. "S-sino?" sabi ko ng mahina
"Elise.." mahina niyang tugon..
<///3 Nakaramdam ako ng pagttraydor. Para akong dinaganan ng isang libong hallow blocks. Bakit sa lahat ng babae siya pa?! <//3
Tuloy tuloy lang ang luha na dumadaloy sa mga mata ko, "Bakit?!"
"I'm sorry Cezzainne.."
"I'M SORRY?! BULLSHIT! TINGIN MO MAPAPALITAN LANG NG ISANG SORRY MO ANG SAKIT NG NARARAMDAMAN KO AH?! EH KUNG KAYA NGA LANG SANA PINASABUGAN MO NA LANG AKO NG ISANG LIBONG SORRY MO! PERO SHT LANG! HINDI EH! BAKIT?! BAKIT MO TO NAGAWA SKEN GAGABB! SABI MO.. MAHAL NA MAHAL MO KO?! ANONG NANGYARI SA PAGMAMAHAL NA YUN?! Anong nangyari?!"
"Cezzainne.. I had fallen out of love.. with you.." Parang may tumamang pana sa mga puso ko. Bulls eye. Fck. Ang sakit.
"B-bakit sa lahat s-siya pa?!"
"I don't know.. But I think I lo----" bago ko pang tuluyan marinig ang sasabihin niya.. pinutol ko na
"Pero paano na ako? Tayo?" :''(
"Wala na.. I just woke up Cezzainne, realizing that Elise is the one I lo----"
*PUUUK*
Binato ko skniya yung binigay niya skeng bracelet na may nakalagay na FOREVER & ALWAYS
"T*NG*N* MO! NAPAKASINUNGALING MO! BINALIKAN MO KO TAPOS IIWAN MO KO DAHIL SA ISANG ARAW HINDI MO NA LANG AKO MAHAL?! GANYAN BANG KABABAW ANG PAGMAMAHAL MO SKEN AH?! BAKIT ANO BANG MERON SIYA NA WALA AK----------"
Hinawakan niya ako sa mag kabilang braso ko.. "MAS NAIINTINDIHAN NIYA AKO AT MAS..."
"MAS ANO?! JAN KA NAMAN MAGALING EH! ANG IKUMPARA KAMING DALAWA! WALA KA NANG NAKITA KUNG HINDI PURO SIYA SIYA SIYA, BAKIT KAYA NIYA BANG PANTAYAN ANG PAGMAMAHAL KO SAYO AH?!"
"HINDI MAN NIYA KAYANG TAPATAN YUN PERO MAS KAYA KONG HIGITAN ANG PAGMAMAHAL KO SKNIYA KESA SA PAGMAMAHAL KO SAYO!!"
Napahawak ako sa bibig ko, humahagul gol na ako. ARAY! TAGUSAN EH! Ang sakit lang <//3
Tinititigan ko lang siya sa mga mata niya, alam ko, alam kong nagsisinungaling ka lang Gagabb.. Alam kong ako at ako pa din ang mahal mo..
Sa sobrang panghihina ko eh napabagsak na lang ako sa floor, at nag ngangawa, talo ko pa ang batang ayaw bilhan ng magulang ng gusto niya sa kakaiyak. Hindi ko inaasahan to..
Hinawakan ko yung mga kamay niya habang nakaluhod, "Please Gagabb, wag mo tong gawin.. Ayoko.. Ayok tayong mag break.. Mahal na mahal kita. Please wag mo kong iwan.." Desperada na kung desperada, mahal na mahal ko tong nilalang nato at gagawin ko ang lahat para mag stay lang siya sa buhay ko.
Lumuhod din siya para mag ka level kami, he cupped my face and wiped my tears..
"Cezzainne..."
"Please Gab.." I'm holding his hands that are cupped in my face, "Wag mo kong iwan.."
"Cez..."
Tumingin ako sa mga mata niya, "Sabihin mo sken.. na mahal mo pa din ako..."
He just stared at me, blankly..
"Please Gab.." I closed my eyes at sobrang daming tumutulo na mga luha..
"open your eyes.."
I opened it..
"Don't make this hard for us Cezzainne, I... don't... love...you... anymore..." Dahan dahan na niyang tinanggal ang mga kamay na nasa mukha ko..
Pero hinawakan ko ulit to, "Please Gab.. Look me straight in the eyes and tell me.. Hindi mo na ba talaga ako mahal?" :''(
"Cezzainne.. You were never good enough for me.. I don't love you anymore..." Tapos tumayo siya
ADSHJKL! Gusto kong magwala! Hindi ako naging sapat skniya?! TAE LANG! <//3
I wiped all my tears and then got the couraged to stand up..
I tried my very best to smile at him, "Wow, Gabriel, you are really something.. You promised me that the our next Valentines day and our 1st anniversary will be full of suprises and will be great.. You said that you will make me remember only happy moments.. But I guess this just so great. And yes, I was surprised, really.. I'm sorry for myself.. For letting me believe in your stupid lies and your crucial promises.. And yes, I may be not good enough for you but maybe you're not just worth it anymore.." I started walking near the door but before I could open the door..
I faced him again, " Well thank you for making may Valentines Day, miserable.. As always.." Then smiled at him..
Sa stairs ako dumaan, ayoko sa elevator.. Ayoko munang umuwi. Linchak na mga luha to eh! Bigla na namang rumagasa..
Tuloy tuloy lang ako sa pagbaba sa hagdan hanggang sa hindi na kinaya pa ng paa ko at bigla na lang napaupo sa staircase..
Masyado nang masakit para sken.. Tinatakpan ko ng mga kamay ko ang mata ko. Ayaw kong lumabas ang mga luhang to..
*PHONE RINGS*
Si kuya Carl tumatawag.. psh, wrong timing naman eh..
I composed myself at pinunasan ang mga luha ko *EHEM*
"K-kuya?"
(Baby, ayos ka lang? bat ganyan ang boses mo?")
"Ah eh K-kuya.. a-ayos lang ako. HA HA HA.. Ah ano ba yun?!" I tried my very best to make my voice lively.
(Ah wala naman... Uuwi ka na ba galing sa date niyo?")
Hayy kung alam mo lang kuya.. "Ah o-oo! Sige malapit na ako.. Bbye!"
("Sige bye. Ingat baby!")
Call ended..
WEW! AYOKO NG UMIYAK! Masyado na akong nawawalan ng tubig sa katawan.. kaya naman tinuloy ko na ang pagbaba ko at nung makarating na sa 12th floor eh dali dali nang pumunta sa apt. at bago pumasok ng bahay eh nag ayos muna ako..
LET'S WEAR A SMILE! :DD
*katok*
"Oh nandito na pala si baby eh! happy valentines day!" Bati sken ni Kuya Carl, binigyan niya ako ng mga bulaklak, hays buti pa siya..
"Oh baby, ayos ka lang? Bat ganyan ang mga mata mo?"
"Ah kuya wala lang to, nagkadramahan lang kami ni Gagabb, you know anniversary eh.. He he he.. Sige salamat Kuya dito ah, punta muna ako sa kwarto.." *weak smile*
Pumasok na ako ng kwarto ko at humiga at ipinikit ang mga mata ko..
*END OF FLASHBACK*
Pagkatapos na pagkatapos ng araw na yun eh, hindi na ako umiyak pa. Kahit nakikita ko silang magkasama sa school at nachichismis eh dedma na lang ako at pangiti ngiti kahit sa loob loob ko eh, kulang na lang sumabog ang puso ko sa sobrang bigat ng nararamdaman neto.
Ngayon na lang ulit ako naka iyak ng ganto. Wew! Sarap umiyak! Nakakagaan ng feeling.. :'')
"hankerchief?"
0______0 nagulat naman ako dun sa biglang nag-offer sken at tumingala..
"Jeremy?!"
CHAPTER 39.2:
The truth is forever blinded by lies.
Cez's POV
"Jeremy?" Lumuluha pa din ako.
He gave me a comforting smile and sat beside me, "Do you really believe that he has fallen out of love with you?" Out of the blue, yan ang sinabi niya.
"I don't know.." kinuha niya yung kamay ko, kaya napatingin ako skniya. He's wearing that smile, that smile that he always shows whenever I'm with him..
babawiin ko sana yung kamay ko ng hinigpitan niya ito at nilagay yung panyo niya, "Damn. I hate seeing girls crying.. Here.."
"Tsss. Really? kaya pala pinaiyak mo kaming dalawa ni Jel noon.." I whispered to myself.
"Saying something?" sambit niya
hay nako, panira ng emo moment etong lalaking to eh, nawala tuloy yung mga rumaragasang luha ko kanina, aish, sayang naman -____- lol :))
"Nah.." Tapos pinunasan ko yung mga luha ko gamit nung panyo niya, "Uh, why are you here?"
"I was planning to watch the game but then I saw Jel.."
0___0 nanlaki ang mga mata ko, "J-jel? Why what's wrong?"
"You know that already.. she's bitter to me and you know that..." He chuckled, psh. Oo nga pala, haha! nakakatawa naman to, nakikicooperate sa pagmmove on ni Jel :))))
"WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!" Tawa ko, shet hindi ko mapigilan eh :)))
"Ey! Why are you laughing? Is there something wrong with what I said?" >///<
"HAHAHAHA it's just that HAHAHAHAHAHA.... nothing.." Then I stopped laughing, actually pinipigil ko meron na kasi siyang red face eh, tsss. Nahiya siguro sa mga sinabi niya :))
"Hey! You have a red face ehh?" :)))) sabi ko
"Pssh. Know what? I miss you calling Ms. Red Face... haha"
"Tss." then I rolled my eyes.
"You know you look beautiful when you smile.." :D
"Bolero.." I hissed.
"Hey! Speak English!" haha napipikon nato, kanina ko pa tinatagalog eh :))
"Psh.. I only look beautiful when I smile.. so it means that---"
"Hey! Don't misinterpret it.. It's better for a girl to smile than to cry.. And you always look beautiful.." *gorgeous smile* shemay! :))
"Tssss. yeah right.. You know liars go to hell..."
"I'm not a liar.. You're beautiful that's one of the reason why I love you..."
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Bigla siyang napatigil sa mga sinabi niya.. Napatingin na lang ako skniya.. Shemay, ayaw mag sink in ng mga sinabi niya sken..
"HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA!" tawa niya, alam ko namang peke eh, psh. Nadulas masyado yung bibig niya -____-
"Ah.. Hehehe.." Yun na lang ang nasabi ko.
AWKWARD! -________-
"Uh Cez, just forget what I said.." >///<
"Hahaha I didn't hear it... Don't worry." *3* hahaha LIAR KA CEZ! -__-
He just gave me a smile, grabe natatawa ako skniya, namumula siya.. :))
Naglakad na lang kami pauwi.. Wala kwentuhan lang ng mga nangyari sa buhay namin this past year..
Silence again..
"I'm not a liar.. You're beautiful that's one of the reason why I love you..."
"I'm not a liar.. You're beautiful that's one of the reason why I love you..."
"I'm not a liar.. You're beautiful that's one of the reason why I love you..."
"AISH!"
"Hey is something wrong with you?!"
"AY PALAKA!!!" Nagulat naman ako, hinawakan niya kasi ako sa shoulders ko.
"WAHAHAHAHAHA! What are you saying?! You people are looking at us right?" :)))
"Ay oo nga pala.. Tsk. Asar!" sabay palo ko sa ulo ko ng mahina
"HAHAHAHAHA! You are really something Cez..." Sabay tap niya sa ulo ko, aish asar naman oooh! >/////<
Naglakad na lang kami ng tahimik.. AWKWARD! -____-
"You'll go to the spring concert right?" Nandito na kami sa tapat ng bldg. ko, hinatid niya kasi ako.
Tumango siya, "Make your performance good, okay? Or else you'll pay for my entrance tickets.." He chuckled.
"Yeah yeah.. Bye!" Then I smiled at him..
...
*SPRING CONCERT*
"YAAAH! You look gorgeous Cez! Break a leg bruha!" Jel
"Tsss. Kaya mo yan, sing it with all emotions ah?" Laura tapped my shoulder
I smiled at them, "AJA!"
"FIGHTING!" We said in unison tapos lumabas na sila ng backstage at pumunta na sa seats nila..
WEW! Kabado lang ako ngayon.. AJA KAYA KO TO!
Natapos na ang dalawang performances.. SHEMAAAAAY! E-eto na ako!
"For our third performance ladies and gentlemen, here is Cezzainne Martin to sing an endearing song to someone who's dearly special to her.. She is singing Disaster by Jojo.. Let's giver her around of applause!"
*palakpakan*
Lumabas na ako ng stage kasama ang gitara ko..
"GO CEZZZZZZZ!!" Sigaw ni Jel
Nginitian ko sila. Napalihis naman yung tingin ko nung may pumasok sa pintuan ng auditorium..
Si Gabriel at si Elise.. Holding hands.. <////3
Habang nakatingin ako sknila, I smiled and nagsalita na sa mic, "Hey guys!"
*Palakapakan* "Hey also!!" sigaw nila
"This song is dedicated to someone who promised me Forever and Always.. Well, I think you know who you are.. *grin* And guess what? That promised turned to a disaster.." :DD // :''(
I started strumming the guitar and they all clapped and shouting...
"SCREW THAT GUY!!" sigaw nung isa, natawa naman ako pati yung mga audience
"I'm back at ya!" sabi ko then winked..
I looked at their gaze and said, "Nothing lasts forever. Forever’s a lie. All we have is what’s between hello and goodbye.."
And then I started singing...
"I'm trying not to pretend that it won't happen again and again like that
Never thought it would end, but you got up in my head and my head like that
You made me happy baby, but love is crazy, so amazing
But it's changing, rearranging
I don't think I can take anymore.."
Laging sumasagi sa isip ko na, hindi mo na ako ulit magagawang iwanan dahil alam ko... nararamdaman ko na hindi mo talaga kaya, kaya naman lagi kong winawalang bahala itong doubt ko, pero tama pala talaga ang instincts ko. Hindi ko aakalain na sa pangalawang pagkakataon eh iiwan mo ako.. Pinasaya mo ko, na parang na sa cloud nine ako, pero nagbago ang lahat..
You changed, I changed.. Our love changed..
"Cuz the walls burned up and our love fell down
And it turned into whatever now we're saying never
Feel the fire cuz it's all around and it's burning
For forever and always
We gotta let it go, be on our way
Look for another day, cuz it ain't the same my baby
Watch it all fall to the ground
No happy ever after, just disaster.."
Dumating lang siya, nasira na ang pagmamahalan natin.. Ngayon, pinanonood lang kitang mahalin ang taong nakasalo sayo mula sa pagkalunod mo sa pagmamahal ko..
"Didn't want it this way, I only wanted to say
Is I loved you right
Then your love went away, and I needed you to stay
But I can't wait for you to realize
All the things I gave you, made you change you
Your dreams came true
When I met you, now forget you
Don't want anymore.."
Minahal naman kita ng tama ah? Pero ano pa bang kulang? Bakit mo ko pinagpalit? Nahulog ka na sa iba, pero pano ako? Kelangan kita pero hindi ko na kaya ang sakit ng nararamdaman ko. I'm in pain. Sana.. ma-realize mo na mahal na mahal kita..
"Cuz the walls burned up and our love fell down
And it turned into whatever now were saying never
Feel the fire cuz it's all around and it's burning
For forever and always
We gotta let it go, be on our way
Look for another day, cuz it ain't the same my baby
Watch it all fall too the ground
No happy ever after, just disaster..
You shot the bullet, you shot the bullet that killed me
Not feeling my heart beat, and now I was dying
I I've been through it, I I've been through the agony
And now my eyes I'm trying, trying, no more crying,
Lying's just a game,
To stand up straight and I'm all right cuz my loves on his way..
Yeah
Burning for forever and always"
You pulled the trigger and went straight to my heart. I can't feel anything but pain and agony. I've been through a lot these past few days, and damn I'm getting tired of crying like a baby. One day, I'm gonna stand up again and show to him what he lost.
"Cuz the walls burned up and our love fell down
And it turned into whatever and now we're saying never
Feel the fire cuz it's all around and it's burning
For forever and always
We gotta let it go, be on our way
Look for another day, cuz it ain't the same my baby
Watch it all fall too the ground
No happy ever after, just disaster
Cuz the walls burned up when our love fell down
And it turned into whatever now we're saying never
Feel the fire cuz it's all around and it's burning
For forever and always
We gotta let it go, be on our way
Look for another day, cuz it ain't the same my baby
Watch it all fall to the ground
No happy ever after, just disaster.."
No more Forever and Always..
"WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!" *claps*
"DAMN THAT BOY!!!"
"YEAAAAAH! WOOOOOOO!!"
Sigawan at palakpakan nila, napahawak naman ako sa mukha, shemaaay! May mga luha pala sa mata ko.. Masyado kong nadamdam yung kanta..
Lahat sila nagtayuan, standing ovation ang loka! Wahaha :))
Sobrang tuwa ko eh, "Thank you! I'm glad you liked it!" sabay bow at umalis na ng stage..
naririnig ko pa din yung palakpakan nila..
Pagdating ko dun sa backstage, sinalubong ako nung mga staff na students na incharge a niyakap, "Congratulations Cez! Nice performance!"
I just smiled at them..
Lumabas muna ako ng backstage..At dumeretso sa staircase na malapit doon at umupo..
Feeling ko lalo akong nanghina.. Wala namang makakakita sken doon dahil lahat sila nasa loob naman..
"Tss. Screw me?" may narinig akong nagsalita sa likuran ko
"G-gabriel?"
Parang badtrip siya, hindi ko maipinta yung mukha niya, "Tell me, balak mo ba talaga akong ipahiya sa maraming tao ah? Ganyan ka ba talaga kababaw Cez?"
AWWWW <///3 Hindi ko alam ang sasabihin ko... Kababaw? Hindi naman. Bitter lang -___-
Hindi ko siya iniimik.. Tumingin ulit ako ng deretso.
Umupo siya sa tabi ko, may pagitan naman..
"Tss. Forever and Always.. Lintik! Kung bakit ko nga ba ipinangako yun sayo.. Ang korny lang nun.. Pang mga jejemon lang ang ganon.. Tsss!" Sambit niya
"Hindi mo na ba talaga ako mahal?" 0___0 nagulat din ako sa mga nasabi ko, shemaaaay! >////<
"Do you think I will break up with you kung mahal pa kita? Mag isip ka naman Cez, akala ko pa naman matalino ka.."
ADSAHSJK! My heart breaks.. Shemay! Kung bakit ko pa kasi natanong yun, oh ayan na yung sagot.. ANG SAKIT DIBA?! <//3
My eyes are starting to wet again.. Geez -___- ang iyakin ko talaga pag dating skniya :'(
"B-bakit ano bang m-meron s-siya na wala ako? W-wala na ba talaga tayong pag-asa?" Tae! I sound desperate, pero shemay lang. Mahal ko to eh! <//3
"Meron siyang pagmamahal ko, ayun ang wala ka Cez.." Straight niyang sagot. ADSJKL lang! Hindi ba pwedeng magsinungaling naman siya?! Ang masokista ko lang ah, alam kong masasaktan ako sa sagot niya pero tanong pa din ako ng tanong. Nyeta lang :'''(
Hindi ko na talagang mapigilan ang mga luhang to, masyado nang mabigat ang nararamdaman ko baka sakaling gumaan kapag dinaan ko sa pag iyak. :'(
Tumayo na siya.. pero hinawakan ko yung kamay niya, one last.. please, last na talaga to..
"Inaru Taka Gagabb..." And then I let his hand go... "You somewhat deserve what I did awhile ago.." Then I smiled and stood up.
"Please make her happy, be happy.." Then I tapped his shoulders and went back to the backstage..
Pagkapasok na pagkapasok ko ng backstage.. I sat in the corner while hugging my knees and cried.. hard.. very hard that there's no more tears coming out of my eyes..
"Cez?"
Pinunasan ko kaagad ang mukha ko at tumingala, "Lorenz?"
"Cez.. Oh anong nangyari na naman sayo?" Yung papable ni Laura
I gave him a smile, a weak one, "O-okay lang ako..."
Tinabihan niya ako, and then 0____0
He hugged me.. "Cez.. Stop pretending.. You have friends you know.. You can always count on us.."
I started crying again, "T-thank you..."
"Shhh.."
...
"Hey soul sister, hey there mister, mister
On the radio, stereo
Hey soul sister, I don't wanna miss a single thing you do tonight
Hey soul sister, I don't wanna miss a single thing you do tonight
Hey Hey Hey (tonight)
Hey Hey Hey (tonight).."
Yan ang closing song namin na lahat ng nagperform, nagpalakpakan ang tao and then we bowed..
Pagkatapos nun naglabasan na ang mga tao at ako naman eh bumaba na ng stage at inayos ang gitara ko at lumabas na.
6:30-8:00 pm kasi yung Spring Concert so nung paglabas ko kaunti na lang ang tao sa hallway, tss. Ang tagal ko pa lang nag ayos.
Tumingin tingin ako kung nasaan sila Laura..
AYUN!
Dali dali akong pumunta sknila..
"LAURA.. JEL!"
Pagkalapit na pagkalapit ko...
*PAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAK*
0_______0
Sinampal ako ni Laura..
"B-bakit?!" Napahawak ako sa pisnge ko.
"MALANDI KAAA!" Sigaw niya sken..
</////3
CHAPTER 40:
A/N: Nakakadisappoint lang dahil bilang na bilang ko lang sa kamay ko yung mga taong nagkkomment at nagvvote kaya naman nawalan ako ng gana i-update po, pero either way, tatapusin ko pa din to.
Pwede niyo namanag sabihin sken kung panget to, basta gusto ko lang marinig yung side niyo yun lang naman.
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Cez's POV
*SLAP*
"MALANDI KA!!" 0_____________________0 napahawak ako sa pisnge ko, shemay ang lakas lang ng sampal sken ni Laura, what the hell? Anyare?
I gave her a what the eff happened look. @__@
"Laura, that's enough!" Pigil ni Renz skniya.
"MGA LECHE KAYO! MAGSAMA NGA KAYONG DALAWA!!!" sabay walk-out niya, hala anong nangyari. Dali dali naman na sinundan siya ni Renz.
Nakatulala pa din ako, I was left dumbfounded. Naramdaman ko na lang na tumutulo na pala ang mga luha ko, napatingin naman ako kay Jel nung hinaplos niya yung likod ko to comfort me.
"Anung n-nangyari?" I mouthed confusingly to her.
Kinuha niya ang cellphone niya and may pinakita siya sken na video..
Napahawak na lang ako sa mga bibig ko, yun yung kinocomfort ako ni Renz sa back stage. WHAT THE HELL?! I was framed up?!
"Woosh. What a slut.."
"I think that's why his boyfriend broke up with that whore.."
Napalingon na lang ako and I saw them looking at me, nandidiri yung tingin nila sken. WHAT THE?! Talagang kinalat pa yung videong yun..
Napatingin naman ako kay Jel, umiiling iling na lang siya..
"N-no Jel... Ple-please believe me... Hindi ko kaya yun gawin sa kaibigan ko..." I held her hands.
But then, inalis niya lang ito, "I don't know Cez... This video says it all.."
"WHAT?! Pati ikaw ba naman Jel?! Kinomfort lang niya ako, it was just a comforting hug. No mutual or bullsht feelings, Jel..." Palakas ng palakas yung boses ko, hindi ko alam yung nararamdaman ko, masyadong mabilis ang mga pangyayari. So sa isang walang kwenta na video na yun, hinusgahan na nila ako? Without hearing my side. EFFIN! Ganyan ba ka-purol ang mga isipan nila ah?!
"Pero alam mo naman na.. AISH! Magpatila muna kayong dalawa ni Laura... Wag muna ngayon, baka lalo lang lumalala..."
"W-wala talaga y-yun...."
"AISH!" Sabay baba ni Jel, malapit kami sa may hagdanan eh. See? Pati siya iniwan din ako, akala ko pa naman mga totoong kaibigan ko sila. SHEMAY lang! Bakit ako pinaparusahan ni Lord ng ganto?! BAKIT?! Mabait naman akong anak, girlfriend, at kaibigan ah! PERO BAKIT GANTO?! Ako ang lumalabas na kontrabida sa sarili kong kwento.
Hahabulin ko sana si Jel nang may humawak sa balikat ko at bumulong.
It creeped me out, nagtaasan ang mga balahibo ko.
"Martin.. Now, does it hurt? Everyone around you is slowly leaving you.." Napalingon ako.
EFFIN! I JUST SAW A DEMON!
Elise with an evil smirk plus horns on top of her head.
"YOU!" I blurted out.
"Yes, Martin?" *smirk*
"You're the reason behind all these, aren't you?!"
She shrugged her shoulders and laughed evily, "Hahaha, you really entertain me with those sufferings of yours. It's giving me a pleasure, you see.."
"FCK YOU!!!!!" Ang sarap murahin ng bruhang to! Tengene talaga kumukulo ang dugo ko, gusto ko siyang sabunutan at patayin kaya lang nasa school grounds kami, ayokong madungisan ang clean record ko.
"Fuck me? HA HA HA, yeah soon. Me and YOUR EX BOYFRIEND WILL FCK EACH OTHER!"
*SLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAP*
"I HOPE YOU ROT IN HELL BITCH!!" Sabay alis, buti nga lang at yun lang ang inabot niya sken. yeah, I slapped her, real hard, yung tipong matatanggalan siya ng ulo. And I saw her face, ready for war but I ain't.
Wala na akong lakas para makipag gera skniya. Hinang hina na ako.
Una, iniwan ako ng taong mahal ko para sa babaeng patapon ang ugali. Pangalawa, tingin ng mga kaibigan ko sken eh isang manunulot, traydor at walang kwentang kaibigan. Pangatlo, lahat ng tingin ng mga ka school mate ko ay isang whore, o kung ano pa mang tawag nila sken.
ANO BANG GINAWA KO SA PAST LIFE KO PARA GANTUHIN AKO?! I DON'T DESERVE THIS! :''(
Tulala lang akong naglalakad. Mabuti naman at hindi ako hinabol nung demonyitang yun. At subukan niya pa akong resbakan, kahit pa mas matangkad siya sken, mapapatay ko talaga siya. Sobra sobra nang emosyon ang nararamdaman ko at tingin ko kayang kaya kong pumatay ng tao sa sobrang bigat at hinagpis ng puso ko.
[AN: singit si author, ang brutal lang ni Cez, oh well. Elise deserves to die! WAHAHAHAHAHAHA..sadist much lang :))]
Nasa labas na akong school, tulalang naglalakad. Walang pakeelam sa mundo, lutang kumbaga. Para akong high na lasing na hindi mo malaman.
*BOOOGSH*
I don't effin care kung may nababangga din ako. Wag lang nila akong bwisitin at baka saknila ko mabuntong tong nararamdaman ko.
"Ms. Sorry..." sabi nung nakabangga ko..
Pero dere deretso lang ako sa paglalakad, ayoko na siyang pansinin.
Naramdaman ko na lang na may humigit sa kamay ko at iniharap skniya...
"CEZZAINNE?! OH SHOOT! What happened to you?!"
-END OF POV-
Laura's POV
Grabe lang ang performance ni Cez, lahat ng tao na carried away sa speech niya at sa way ng pagkanta niya. NGAYON GABRIEL! HUH! SERVES HIM RIGHT! Girl power! XDD
After kumanta ni Cez, lahat ng tao nagpapalakpakan, standing ovation nga eh. Kaya pati kami ni Jel, nasama. Feel na feel kasi ni Cez ang paghandog ng kantang yun kay Gabriel.
Ang next nang kakanta eh si Enzobabes (errrrr! Hindi talaga ako sanay sa ganito, pero siguro nga ganto pag inlababo ka, kung ano anong nagagawa at nasasabi mo, power of love nga naman.)
Ayan na si Enzo sa stage, errr. Lahat ng babae tumitili, oo alam ko, ganyang ka-gwapo ang boyfriend ko. Tsss -_______-
Nagsalita na siya sa mic, "Uhm hello.."
And guess what? Lahat ng babae, tumitili. *irap* Natatawa tawa lang si Jel. Psh >.<
"Since Ms. Cezzainne dedicated her song to the one she truly loves, I will also dedicate this song to my babe. Hey there! I see you from here.." *wink*
Lahat naman ng tao napatingin sken, shemay! Kelangan may ganon pa?!
"Acheche, kiniklig!" Asar ni Jel, inirapan ko lang siya.
"You're really beautiful babe.." Lahat sila nagtitilian, aysus! Ano ba naman ito -___- "I know these past few days, things are getting complicated but I know we will go through this all together and no matter what happens.. Just remember I love you."
"KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!" sigawan nila, I can't help but smile. Tinutunaw niya ang bato kong puso :''>
He started strumming his guitar..
-END OF POV-
Lorenzo's POV ("PAPABLE" NI LAURA)
Nung sinabi ko yung intro lahat sila nagtitilian, and I can see na kinikilig itong babes ko. Shet! Ang gay, kinikilig din kasi ako. Hoho :))
I started strumming my guitar..
"There was a new girl in town.
She had it all figured out. (Had it all figured out)
And I'll state something rash.
She had the most amazing....smile.
I bet you didn't expect that.
But she made me change my ways. (She made me change my ways)
With eyes like sunsets baby.
And legs that went on for days."
Nung una ko siyang makita sa subdivison namin dati, alam ko na nung time na yun, tinamaan na ako skniya. Yes, I was mesmerized by her smile. It was natural and full of happiness. Simula pa lang nun, hindi na ako tumitingin sa ibang babae, nahulog na talaga kasi ako skniya. Everytime I look at her eyes, damn. She's so gorgeous.
"I'm fallin' in love
But it's fallin' apart.
I need to find my way back to the start.
When we were in love.
Oh things were better than they are.
Let me back into.
Into your arms.
Into your arms."
I fell in love with her, and will always fall for her. But now, our relationship is getting complicated because of some urgh! Naasar ako, nagkakamalabuan kasi kami eh. Yeah, I need to go back to the start.. Actually, we. Not as stangers, but the first time na naging kami. Well, I don't know. Yung unang feeling na lahat ayos at walang kumakalaban sainyo. I love her too much. And it's hurting me.
"She made her way to the bar.
I tried to talk to her.
But she seemed so far. (She seems so far)
Outta my league.
I had to find a way to get her next to me."
Nakita ko siya sa skating rink noon, which is sinadya ko talagang bunguin siya nun. (Basta nasa previous chaps. po iyon dati.) Sinadya ko yun, para lang makausap niya ako, kahit pagalit, kahit susungitan niya ako. Determinado kasi akong gawin siyang girlfriend at asawahin na panghabang buhay. Oo na ako na bading, pero mahal ko talaga siya, sobra. Ayoko nang maging torpe nun.
"I'm fallin' in love
But it's fallin' apart.
I need to find my way back to the start.
When we were in love.
Oh things were better than they are.
Let me back into.
Into your arms.
Into your arms.
Oh she's slippin' away.
I always freeze when I'm thinking of words to say.
All the things she does.
Make it seem like love.
If it's just a game. (Just a game)
Then I like the way that we play."
Hindi ko hahayaang mawala siya sken, hindi ko kakayanin eh. Hays. Kahit simpleng galaw niya lang at pag ngiti niya. I always find myself falling for her all over again. Habang tinitigan ko siya habang kumakanta ako, hindi ko mapigilan na hindi mapangiti. Hindi ko kasi aakalain na ang babaeng dati ko lang pinapangarap ay girlfriend ko na. Kaya hindi na ako magpapakatanga para pakawalan siya.
"I'm fallin' in love
But it's fallin' apart.
I need to find my way back to the start.
I'm fallin' in love
But it's fallin' apart.
I need to find my way back to the start.
When we were in love.
Oh things were better than they are.
Let me back into.
Into your arms.
Into your arms.
Into your arms.
Into your arms.."
After I sang, they all clapped. I smiled at her, my life. I saw tears in her eyes. Urgh. I just want to get off this stage and hug her.
I bowed and smiled once again to her then left the stage.
-END OF POV-
Laura's POV
After ng performance niya, hindi ko napigilan ang tears of joy ko. Bagay na bagay yung kanta saamin. Kinikilig na ewan ko yung feeling ko. May sumunod naman na nagperform, bigla na lang nagvibrate yung phone ko.
Tinignan ko kung sino nagtext pero unregistered number.
It was a video clip..
I opened it..
0______________________________________________________________0
"Oh sht!" I heard Jel cussed.
Napatingin naman ako skniya, she looked at me worriedly..
"You saw it?" Sabi ko, tumango lang siya.
"Sinong santanas ang nagkalat neto?" Jel
"takte! Eto ba ang sinasabi niyang pagmamahal ah?!" I formed my hands na parang susuntok, tae. Eto ba ang ginagawa niyang kalokohan behind my back?! AT TALAGANG SA KAIBIGAN KO PA AH! Di kaya eto ang reason kung bakit siya iniwan ni Gabriel ah? Dahil lumalandi ang girlfriend niya sa boyfriend ng kaibigan niya ah?! WHAT THE EFF lang! Trayduran ba talaga ah?!
"Chill Laura, kinokomfort lang naman niya si Cez eh.." Explain ni Jel
"Comfort?!" Pinipigilan kong sumigaw dahil nga nasa auditorium kami,"Hutaenang comfort yan! Kailangan may yakap at ganong ka-dikit?!?!"
"Alam mo naman ang sitwasyon ni Cez dba? Alam mo naman na----"
"Fck it! So kelangan boyfriend ko pa talaga ang magcomfort skniya ah?!"
"Eh intindihin----------"
"Shut up Jel, don't wanna hear those stupid explanations." Sabay irap, leche silang dalawa! ANG KAKAPAL NG MUKHA NILANG GUMAWA NG KUNG ANO ANO BEHIND MY BACK! -____-
After nung concert, dali daling bumaba si Enzo sa stage at nilapitan ako.
"Babe.."
*SLAAAAAP*
0________________________0 <-- ganyan ang rekasyon niya
I gave him my cellphone at ipinakita ko skniya, "Wow lang Lorenzo Hidalgo, you are one truly a liar! Love love? Fcksht lang! At talagang sa dilim pa kayo nagyayakapan ah..."
Pinipigilan na ako ni Jel pero hindi pa din ako nagpapaawat, so what kung may tao ah?! IDC!
"Babes.. It's not what you think it is..."
"Then what am I suppose to think ah? That my boyfriend is flirting with my best friend?! FCK----"
"Laura, tama na please, wag dito...." Pigil sken ni Jel sabay hinila ako sa labas, sa may mga stairs.
WOW LANG! May gana pang lumapit sken tong traydor kong best friend..
Pagkalapit na pagkalapit niya *SLAAAAAAAP*
"MALANDI KAAAAAAAAAA!" I blurted out to her. Inis na inis na ako, hindi ko alam na may secret agenda pala sila ng boyfriend ko behind my back. WHAT THE HELL!
Dali dali naman akong pinigilan ni Lorenzo na nagmamadaling lumabas sa audi, ""Laura, that's enough!"
"MGA LECHE KAYO! MAGSAMA NGA KAYONG DALAWA!!!" sabay walk-out. MGA TRAYDOR!!!
Dali dali naman akong hinila ni Lorenzo sa braso at iniharap skniya, "Laura, just please hear the WHOLE STORY!"
"NO! This video is enough!" For sure, magpapalusot lang yan -____-
I walked away but hinila niya pa din ako, nasa hallway kasi kami alangan namang mag away kami sa hallway dba? Kaya naman nandito kami sa backyard ng school.
"S-stop it! Nasasaktan ako ah!" sabay kalas sa kamay niya, ang higpit kasi ng hawak niya eh.
"Bat akala mo ba ikaw lang nasasaktan ah? AKO DIN LAURA! AKO DIN! You're acting like a child, you're so stubborn, you don't listen to anyone."
"Cause' there's nothing to listen to! It will all be lies!"
"Do you really believe that your best friend can do that you huh?! AND MOST OF ALL DO YOU REALLY BELIEVE THAT I CAN DO THAT TO YOU?! For pete's sake Laura! Hindi ako pumunta dito sa Canada para lang sundan ka, tapos gawin kang girlfriend tapos gawin kang play time! I sacrificed a lot for you.. Even if it means na magkagalit kami ng kapatid ko! Don't you trust me? Us? Ganyan na ba ka sarado ang utak mo para hindi mo malaman ang totoong dahilan ah?!"
Dere-deretso niyang sinabi yun, as in non stop. I was taken a back with his words. Maybe cause' its all true? Wala akong masabi, speechless ako. Sa sobrang speechless ko, luha na lang ang tanging nagiging response ko sa mga sinasabi niya.
"Maybe that's why we're falling apart, you don't trust me. Lagi ka na lang tamang hinala. Why? Is it not enough huh? Lahat ng effort ko, binigay ko na. Minsan nga sinasadya kong hindi sumama sayo sa lunch at makipagpraktis sknila kasi lagi mo na lang akong sinusumbatan, inaaway. Nakakasawa rin naman Laura. Hindi naman kita matiis, kasi mahal kita eh! Tingin mo ba play time lang tong nararamdaman ko sayo ah?! Pupunta ba ako dito sa Canada kung ganto lang hah?!"
My tears... It kept falling, non stop.
He held my shoulders, "Ano pa bang kulang Laura ah?! ANO PA BANG KELANGAN KONG PATUNAYAN SAYO AH?!"
Umiiling-iling lang ako, wala na naman siyang kailangan patunayan eh. Nakita at nasaksihan ko lahat ng effort niya. Masyado lang talaga akong nadala sa emosyon ko nung nakita ko yun.
I forgot the word, trust.
Binitawan niya ang shoulders ko, "Laura, you know that I love you too much.. But this... This relationship is not working..."
May kung anong dumurog sa puso ko nung narinig ko yung mga salitang yun galing skniya. Please? Please? Wag mong ituloy? <//3
"Laura... Kung puro pagmamahal na lang.. Wala ng tiwala? Ano na lang mangyayari sa relationship nato? Lagi na lang tayong nag-aaway, nagbabangayan. Nakakapagod na din.." He sighed.
I took every ounce of my courage to say these words, cause really, it breaks my heart, "A-are y-you b-breaki-------" pinutol niya yung sinabi ko.
"Yes, Laura.. I think we need this.. For our reationship.. Hindi sapat ang pagmamahal kung walang tiwala.. Minsan kahit sobrang mahal mo ang isang bagay, kailangan mo din itong pakawalan lalo na kung nagkakasakitan na kayo."
Pakawalan? Nagkakasakitan? Ganto ko na ba siya napapahirapan? Rumaragasa na ang mga luha ko, bakit ba lagi niya akong nakikitang umiiyak? Sobrang sakit lang. My heart's breaking into little pieces, gusto kong bawiin yung sinabi niya..
"P-pero m-mahal n-na m-mahal k-kita.." Nakatungo ako at pabulong kong sabi ito..
He suprisingly hugged me and whispered to my ears, "I love you too, Laura. Sobra sobra.. But I think we have to part ways for us to grow.. I will always love you, Laura.."
Then with that, he kissed my forehead and whispered again, "See you soon, Laura.."
And left.
I watched his back walking away from me. He left me here, standing and having my heart with him. I just can't believe na isang snap lang, we broke up. Seems like yesterday...
Luging lugi ako ngayong araw, nawalan ako ng minamahal ko, nawalan din ako ng best friend.
We did fell apart. </////3
CHAPTER 41:Dun sa mga nagvvote and nagccomment, kayo na po ang sunod sa dedic list ko. :) Enjoy reading readers, para dun po sa silent readers, libre pong maging active *3*
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You just don't know how much it's hurt to be me. It's not easy like you thinking about.
Cez's POV
"I-I don't want to go home..." Sabi ko kay Jeremy, siya yung tao na iniharap ako skniya sabay tungo, "i don't feel like going home please..."
Hinawakan niya ang baba ko at iniharap skniya pagkatapos ngumiti. Pagkangiti naman niya eh, hinawakan niya ang kamay ko at hinila ako. Well, I'm in pain right now and so I don't care kung san niya ako dalin, kahit sa bar pa. Gusto ko lang mawala tong sakit nato. I feel like my heart has been stabbed for a million times.
At dahil nga nakatungo akong naglalakad, nagulat na lang ako nung pumasok kami sa isang building, "W-where are we?"
"In my pad."
0_________________0 bat sa lahat ng pagdadalan niya sken eh sa condo niya pa?! Like hello?! Buti pa sa bar eh, pero dito... /lunok!
I looked at him like why here look.
"HAHAHAHA. Don't worry, I'm not gonna rape you or something.. tssh.."
"Ahhh hehehe.." *shy smile*
"You are truly cute when you smile.." Then he pinched my cheeks..
"Aish! What was that for?"
"HAHAHA. I just can't resist your cuteness ya' know." *wink*
K. Did I just blush? What the hell, I'm heart broken here for pete's sake! Pssh -__-
Nasa elevator na kami, "Pffft.. HAHAHA.." tawa niya. Ang baliw neto eh, bigla bigla na lang tumatawa, like what the hell? -__- buti na lang at kami lang dalawa sa elevator kung di napagkamalan nato na takas sa mental.
"Is there even something funny?"
"HAHAHA.. yeah... Well, I was just amazed cause' I can still make your face go red..."
I just rolled my eyes, "yeah yeah...." *sacrasm*
Nung nasa pad na niya kami, isa lang ang masasabi ko; "Ang manly." Well, his pad is furnished then its theme is color black and white.
"Not bad.." Sabi ko
"You like my pad?" Tumango lang ako, "Well, you can live here.." *smirk*
"Psh. Seriously Jeremy.." *sarcasm*
"Hahahaha okay okay..." And then umupo na ako sa couch niya, "Elise is really something, she sent the video to everyone.."
"Why does she like seeing me suffer? I mean what did I do wrong to her?"
Then umupo na din siya, "Well, when we were at France, I knew from the start that she really likes Gabriel. And so she convinced her parents to make a deal with his parents to have them get married but Gab's family said no cause' they knew wouldn't approve to that.. But there's one who likes Elise for Gab, it was her Aunt. The two of them joined together so ya' know.. But they weren't successful. You know why right?"
"Seriously, no I don't.."
"Psh!" Sabay ginulo yung buhok ko, "Cause he really loves you that's why. He searched for you and he went here.. And yeah he was lucky cause' we didn't got back together.." Parang naging disappointed siya.
"Tsss. This is the only time that I will have the guts to ask you... So really... The first time we met, do you remember? You told me that I shouldn't be assuming and bla bla?" (chapter 1)
"HAHAHAHA yeah.. I was just being a dumbass that time.."
"Yeah, you got me confusing, cause' you told me you didn't like me then you asked me out and then... aish! Why are boys so complicated?"
"Hahaha. And girls too... Well, to be honest, I really like you and I just didn't like your loud friends--"
"You didn't like them but you hanged out with Jel?! Aish! haha.."
"Yeah, I just realized that she is a good company even Laura, they're good friends..."
"Well, we're not friends anymore.." *sigh*
"O'cmon! I know you three will be okay..."
I smiled and sighed. We just talked for hours and then I went home. He wanted to accompany me but I don't want to.. I want to be alone..
"Hays..." I sighed to myself and entered our house.
"Oh what's with sad face baby?" Kuya Carlos
"I'm really bad friend kuya.." I smiled, weakly.
"W-what? Anong nangyari?" And then he hugged me, "Alam mo baby, nandito kaming pamilya mo, lagi kaming nandito para sayo.. just tell us.."
"Traydor akong kaibigan, walang kwenta..."
"Shhhh. baby.." habang hinahaplos ang likod ko
Dumating naman si Ate Ysay, "Cez, umamin ka nga sken, kayo pa ba ni Gabriel?"
Umalis naman sa yakap si kuya at tumingin sken at naghihintay ng sagot, I just smiled, bitterly.
"Is that a yes baby?" Kuya
I just hugged him and cried, "Ang sakit sakit kuya!"
"DAMN! THAT BASTARD!!!" Sigaw niya
Bigla bigla naman lumabas si Kuya Carl sa banyo na tila parang naguguluhan sa sitwasyon, "Hala! Bat na naman naiyak ang baby namen?!"
Natatawa naman na sumagot si Ate Ysay, "So kelangan may shampoo ka pa sa ulo?! Pffft. HAHAHA!"
"Tsss! Nakakagulat kasi tong si twin eh! Makasigaw, wagas!"
"May puputulan tayo ng pagkalalaki twin!!" Kuya Carlos
"ANO?! BREAK NA KAYO NI GABRIEL?!" Kuya Carl
"Eh ano pa nga ba? Ano bang dahilan ah?" Ate Ysay
Nakayakap lang ako kay Kuya, "*sobs* He said he fell out *sobs* of love for *sobs* me..." para akong batang nagsusumbong, pero ang sakit lang talaga. Sobra. Yung taong pinakamamahal mo eh, nawalan na ng pagmamahal sayo at nakahanap na ng iba.
"FCK! ANONG KABADINGAN NA DAHILAN YUN?!" Kuya Carl
"Hinding hindi na talaga siya makakalapit sayo!" Kuya Carlos habang kinokomfort pa din ako
"Ah Carl, baka naman gusto mong magdamit na ano? Basang basa na yung sahig eh!" Ate Ysay
"Panira ka talaga ng dramatic scene ano?" Kuya Carl
Umiyak lang ako ng umiyak at kwinento ko ang buong pangyayari and then...
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*yawn* Nagising na lang ako, t-teka? Sinong nagdala saken dito sa kama? Alam ko yakap yakap kong parang bata si Kuya Carlos tapos..
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"M-ma?" Nakatalikod kasi si mama sken may inaayos siya sa may comp. table ko
"Oh baby, you're awake na pala.." And then she went near me and kissed my forehead, "Sa sobrang kakaiiyak mo in your Kuya's arm, nakatulog ka na... Are you okay now? Namumugto yung mata mo.."
"Ma I don't feel like going school today.."
"It's okay.. Basta tomorrow pumasok ka ah, I'll just call your school baby ah?"
"Thanks ma.." nagpapasalamat talaga ako sa family ko dahil napakabait at supportive nila sken, atleast I know may nagmamahal pa sken. :)
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*The Next Day*
Lunch na nga pala ngayon, and guess what? Nasa may locker lang ako nakaen. Ayokong pumuntang caf, alam ko naman na walang papansin sken doon eh. Forever Alone ika nga. Alam ko naman na masama pa din ang loob sken nila Jel at lahat ng nakakita nung video, malamang slut na ang tingin sken eh. *sigh*
Iniiwasan kasi ako nila Jel, may klase kasi kaming magkaklase kami, at tuwing titignan ko sila, titingin naman sila sa iba. Hays. Ewan ko ba, sobra sobra na talagang pasakit ang binibigay sken ni Elise. Hindi pa ba siya masaya? nakuha na niya si Gabriel pati ba naman mga kaibigan ko?
Yung feeling na tuwing titingin ka sknila eh, parang may gusto silang sabihin pero bigla na lang dedma. *sigh* Ang hirap kapag nawalan ka ng minamamahal, nawalan ka pa ng kaibigan.. :(
Para akong loner dito, kumakain mag isa, no scratch that, LONER nga ako. *sigh*
Wala akong gana kumain, kaya naman pinaglalaruan ko lang yun gamit ng fork ko. Nagulat naman ako nung may biglang may magsalita sa tabi ko, "Food is for eating not for playing..."
Pag tingala ko, si Jeremy pala. I just smiled at him weakly.
"What's up with that face?" tapos umupo siya sa tabi ko
"Why are you talking to the slut girl of the school?" Natatawa kong sabi, oo nga pala, pagkapasok na pagkapasok ko sa school eh may nakalagay sa pinto ng locker ko ng "SLUT" at tuwing pag may nadaan na estudyante eh nagbubulungan sila na bakit pa daw ako nagpakita despite nung nangyari na kalandian ko daw. Basta ang daming mga rumuors na ayoko na lang patulan. Lalo kong papatulan, lalong sasaya si Elise, ibig sabihin pikon ako. Ayoko na siyang pasayahin masyado sa misery ng buhay ko.
"Tch.. Affected?"
I just smiled at him, wala ako sa mood para makipagusap sa tao. Wala lang I just feel like this. *silence*
Ang tahimik.. Ayoko kasing magsalita eh, wala naman akong sasabihin.. Kaya sa sobrang katahimikan eh binasag niya rin to, "Cez! Ey! I'll be your buddy!"
napatingin naman ako skniya, "W-what?" :))
"Just a compensation of what I did to you a year ago... And since your friends are away for awhile.. I'll be your buddy.." *ngiting ewan*
"Psh! Are you insane?" natatawa kong sabi
"Hey! What's wrong with helping with the girl you love?! HAHA.." Dere-deretso niyang sabi
"W-what?" A-ano daw? 'with the girl you love?'
"Oooops! Did I just say something?" *innocent effect*
"Yeah with------------" sinubuan naman niya ako kaagad..
"HAHHAHAHAHA nevermind that! HAHA.." Nung nalunok ko na yung kinaen ko...
"WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT FOR?! HAHAHAHA!" Ako
"Hahaha just don't mind what I say, okay?"
May dumaan, "Wow she's really a slut.. She replaces boys like changing clothes.. tsktsk.."
*sigh*
"Don't mind them buddy... I know they're more sluts than you do..." *wink*
"Psh, I think I'll be used to it..." ... "And hey.. buddy?"
"Yeah, that's what I call you, cute isn't?" *ngiting ewan*
"Hahaha you look like a kid.."
"I am a kid... well a teenager...makulit me!"
"HAHAHAHAHAH MAKULIT?!"
"Yeah... Handsome!" *pogi sign* psh! HAHAHAHAHA
"Pfffft. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Pabo..." :)) [ pabo= stupid (korean word) ]
"W-wait what?!"
"HAHAHAHA nothing... yeah yeah you are MAKULIT!" :))))) Ang alam niya pa rin pala ng makulit eh gwapo, tsss. naniwala talaga siya, hindi man lang niya sinearch sa google eh. tsktsk. Oh well! yaan na naten gusto ko siya na mismo ang makaalam :))))
Simula ng araw na yun, naging buddy ko na siya. Ang tawagan nga namin eh, bud/buddy. Hindi na rin niya nasasamahan ang mga kaibigan niya, naboboringan din daw kasi siya at puro daw kalokohan ang topic nila.
Lagi kaming magkasama, iniintay niya ako sa baba ng bldg. namen at sabay na pumapasok. Siya din ang kasama ko tuwing lunch at uwian. Dalawang linggo na ganto ang set up naming dalawa. I really enjoy his company. Napapatawa naman niya ako napapasaya. Hey, wala nang kilig or whatsoever ah, friends na talaga kami niyan.
Shmpre makakaligtas ba kami sa chismis? NAH. Ang harot harot ko daw, kasi nga Gabriel tapos si Lorenzo tapos ngayon naman daw si Jeremy.. ULIT! PSH >.<mga echosera sila..
Nandito kami Business Class ko and yeah kaklase ko si Jeremy.. Madalas kasing hindi pumapasok si Gab sa klase namen kaya naman nandito siya sa upuan neto..
Nagtatawanan kami ni Jeremy, hindi pa naman kasi start ng klase ng biglang may boses na parang galit, "Excuse me, that's my seat Rodriguez.."
Napatingala naman kami ni Jeremy.. /gulp. Si Gabriel?
"Wow, what a miracle, you went to this class huh?" Jeremy
"And what is it to you? Can you just go back to your seat?!" Asar na sabi nito
I just smiled at Jeremy and signed him to go back.. "Okay bro.." sabi neto kay Gab
"Don't call me bro, we're not brothers." Masungit na sabi neto, wow lang ha! Meron ka lang koya?! :))
"Woah chill.."
Pero kumunot lang ang noo nito, at nagbasa lang ng libro..
Nagulat naman ako kay Jeremy at tumabi naman siya sa may kabila ko nakipagpalit siya sa isa kong kaklase, bali ganto ang seats namin..
'CM' (clasmmates)
Teacher's Desk
CM-CM CM-CM CM-CM
CM-CM Gab-Ako Jeremy-CM
CM-CM CM-CM CM-CM
Kahit na may aisle pagitan smen eh nakakapagusap pa din kami. Nagtatawanan kami ng biglang.. *BLAAAAAAAAG* may pumalo sa table ng malakas..
"Mr. Gabriel, why did you bang your table? Something wrong?" Tanong nung teacher
"Yes Ms. these two are so noisy.. I can't concentrate well..." Masungit niyang sabi
"Mr. Jeremy and Ms. Cezzainne?" Tanong ng teacher skniya
"Yes Ms. it's annoying..."
"Oh... Oh yeah Jeremy.. Is that even your sit.. Tch! Go back to your seat..."
"But Ms----"
"Just go back to your seat! Ang ingay ingay niyo.." Iritang sabi ni Gab, aba't nag tagalog pa ang mokong -.-
"just go back.." bulong ko, nakita ko naman na nakasmirk si Jeremy...
"Oh okay Ms. I'll go back to my seat, someone's jelous.. Bye bud.." *smirk sabay kindat sken*
Nagtilian naman ang mga kaklase ko, psh.. selos? Like yeah na mangyayari yun, hindi na ako mahal niyan.. Pero how I wish, nararamdaman niya yun.. *sana* :(
*SCHOOL BELL*
Lunch na! :DD Dali dali naman akong tumayo at pinuntahan ang buddy ko, "Bud!"
"Psh.. Your ex could kill me just by looking ya' know.."
Napatingin naman ako sa direksyon ni Gab at kitang kita sa mukha niya na parang sasabog na siya, oh anong problema niya? ?_______?
"Nah... Don't mind him.. Let's go?" Hinila ko na ang buddy ko at lumabas na kami.. Pero bigla namang may humila sa wrist ko, napatalikod ako para tignan kung sino.
"Gabriel?"
"Let's talk.."
"No.. There's nothing to talk about.. Let go!"
"Yeah there is..."
"I said let go! ano ba nasasaktan ako.." Humigigpit kasi yung hawak niya sken..
"You heard her Gab, let go!" Si Buddy
"Don't interfere Rodriguez, it's none of your business.."
Bigla naman akong hinila ni Jeremy mula skniya at pinunta niya sa may likuran niya, "I have the right to, and you don't.. She's my business now.. So shoo away Gab.." Sabay talikod at hinawakan na ako sa kamay at naglakad na kami.
Bigla naman na may nagtap kay Jeremy causing him na lumingon and then *PUNCH*
"GABRIEL STOP IT!!!" Pinagsusuntok niya si Jeremy..
Tumayo kaagad si Jeremy at pinagsusuntok din siya, "Bud stop it!" Pigil ko skniya. Hinawakan ko yung braso niya at kinalog to, "Stop it bud..."
"Don't you ever do that again to me nor to her Gab! Or else it'll much be worse than that.."
"You're fast replacing me huh? Maybe what they say it's true.. You're a sl---" Sabi niya habang pinapahid ang dugo niya sa labi niya
Is he insane or what?! Siya tong una akong palitan, GHAAAD!
"YOU BASTARD!" Susuntukin sana siya ulit netong si Jeremy pero pinigilan ko siya.
"Huh what? Isn't true?! She's a slut."
*PUNCH* Sinuntok siya ni Jeremy, "BUD!" sabay hawak sa mga braso niya.
"Don't you ever call that to her!! You're the one who replace who first? And now look who's talking! Wow Gabriel! You are really something!"
"Bud..." hinigpitan ko ang paghawak sa braso niya as a sign na umalis na tayo..
"No wait.. I have something to tell him Cez, you are a dumbass you know that?! You left her with a girl who's insane?! Really?! You are a bastard! You played and made her life miserable. And I promised you that the day you mess up with her feelings again, I will be there for her and take care of her. I will fill up all those things that you weren't able to give. I won't allow you near her again! I won't and I will never let you have her again..."
Gabriel smirked, "Like that will happen, she loves me too much.." ANG KAPAL LANG NG MUKHA NIYA! HOW DARE HE... pero totoo naman kasi...
"I----" Magsasalita sana si Jeremy pero pinigilan ko na siya.
"But then it's not impossible for me to fall in love with a person who made me feel that I am a girl that deserves to be loved.. Don't be so confident Gabriel, one of these days, you might hear the news.. "The slut girl has completely fallen out of love with his bastard ex and fell in love with her prince charming..." I confindently said, kahit alam kong nowhere near na mangyayari yun... I just love him too much and I just can't let go..
Tila nagulat naman siya sa sinabi ko, sana naramdaman niya yung sakit na ipagpalit ko siya sa iba. Kasi ngayon, kung ano mang sakit o kung meron man siyang nararamdaman eh mas higit pa dun ang nararamdaman ko.
hinawakan ko naman sa kamay si Jeremy as a sign na umalis na tayo dito. Kaya naman naglakad na kami papalayo at bago pa kaming tuluyan lumayo eh biglang nagsalita si Gabriel..
"You must be really happy now.." yung boses niya ang tame, at para bang nasasakntan siya.. I didn't bother looking back at him.. Cause' my heart knows.. Skniya lang ako sasaya.. Ayoko na din siyang nakikitang nasasaktan, kung oo man. Baka kasi hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili ko at yakapin ko siya.. Ang hirap at ang sakit lang.
A tear fell down from eyes. His words hit me, no.. No, I am not happy.. This heart will only beat for you.. Gagabb..
When you left and walked away, what really hurt was how you madeit look so easy... like I never meant anything to you. So now, I will do the same..
CHAPTER 42:Goodbyes doesn't mean it's the ending, it may also be a beginning.
Cez's POV
*GRADUATION DAY*
"KUYA! Dalian mo malalate tayo, tinalo mo pa ako sa sobrang tagal mag ayos!" I said impatiently.
"Oy twin! Bakla ka ba ah? Tagal eh.." Kuya Carl
"Eto na eto na, tsss! Kailangan kasi mas gwapo ang Kuya ngayon lalo na't graduation ngayon ni baby girl namin.." sabay tap sa ulo ko.
"Wahahaha di hamak naman kasi na mas gwapo ako sayo!" Kuya Carl
"Ang kapal lang ng mukha mo twin.." Kuya Carlos
"Aish! Tara na nga.. Hmp!" Sabay lumabas na kami ng bahay, nasa baba na kasi sila momy nagaantay sa may labas ng bldg.
*enters car* "Oh bat ang tagal niyo ata?" Daddy
"Itanong niyo kay twin kung bakit.." Kuya Carl
"Tss! Oo na oo na, ako na ang makupad.." Kuya Carlos
"Buti naman at tanggap mo..." Ako, "KYAAAA! Mashakit!" kurutin ba naman ako sa pisnge
"AYAN! Sira na tuloy blush on ko.." *pout*
"bakit sino ba pinapagandahan mo dun baby?" Kuya Carlos
"Wala..."
"Weh?" Silang dalawa, aba't tignan mo tong dalawang makulit na kuya ko -____-
"Wala nga eh.. KULET!"
"Asuuuus! Ehhh hindi ba yung "JEREMY" na yun?" Sabay tawa nila ni Kuya
"Ang kukulet, kaibigan ko lang yun, buddy kumbaga.."
"KA-I-BIGAN kamo!" sabay apir nila >.< seriously, may mga tama talaga tong kapatid ko. HAYS! umirap na lang ako, sayang lang ang boses ko kakakausap sknila, effortless lang din naman.
"Ayy nga pala nasan si Ysay?" Mommy
"Ayun nandun sa ka-ibigan niya..." Kuya Carlos
"Ahh. AYY nga pala, Jeremy gave these flowers to you.." Sabay may kinuha si mommy sa may baba at ibinigay sken. Nakita ko naman na nakatingin sken si dad from the mirror.
At nakita ko naman ang mga reaksyon nila Kuya, WHAT THE?! Bakit ganon naman sila makatingin sken? -_____- parang natatae na ewan, kinikilig ba sila?! PSH >.<
"Dad.. Don't look at me like that.." Nilagay ko sa may lap ko yung mga flowers.
"Seems my daughter is---"
"Cut it out dad, no.." Sabay tingin sa may bintana... These past few days, inaasar nila ako lagi kay Jeremy, pero wala talaga eh. Siya pa din kasi..
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"Now, for our valedictorian, Laura Jane Cortez, for her graduation speech." *palakpakan*
"FILIPINO! FILIPINO! WOOOO" sigawan ng mga Pilipino, haha nakakatawa lang :))
"Good Morning everyone and Happy Graduation to us seniors!" panimula ni Laura, "All of you must be thinking that 'hey this girl is nerd, a bookworm' well I ain't. I'm just a simple, normal girl who's living a student, like you. I'm giving this speech not because I want to brag that I'm the valedictorian, but to represent all the students that have worked hard for this school year. We, maybe, sometimes, naughty, goofing around, and making our teachers gone crazy but, inside of us, there will always be worries. Worries that we might not pass, worries that we might not graduate. What is a student, without a sacrifice right? So congratulations to us seniors! Thank you to the students who welcomed me in my first day of school here, thank you for not being a racist! *nagtawanan* and KUDOS TO ALL FILIPINOS THERE! *nagsigawan yung mga Pilipino* . I will miss this school which has given me a lot of memories to keep..." She started tearing up...
"The education and the discipline that you have taught us.. Well except for somebody... *sarcasm sabay tingin kay Elise, lahat naman nagtawanan sabay lumihis ulit ng tingin si Laura at ngumiti* And as every commencement speech, they would always say, this is not the end, hence, this is just a beginning, a new chapter in our lives. It's not always about studying and marks, it's also about knowing life and experiencing every moment of it. Knowledge only shows of how you know as a person, but experience shows of who you really are as a person. I say thank you to all the staff, teachers, parents, and mostly to God. Once again, congratulations to us seniors! We completed and survived one of the chapters in our lives. Let's fill our next chapters with a roller coaster experience. I, Laura Jane Cortez, with my co-graduates are ending this chapter and moving to the next, happily. Thank you." *bow* At lahat naman kami nagpalakpakan, may mga tumayo pa nga eh.
"THAT'S THE SENIOR POWER!" Sigaw nung isa, lahat naman nagtawanan at nagpalakpakan.. Nagsimula nang magtawag ng pangalan para umakyat dun sa stage para kunin yung diploma, "Cezzainne Martin.."
Tumayo na ako at naka-abang na sken ang parents ko sa may stage, kasama ko sila kasi ako ang Salutatorian.
"We're very proud of you baby." Bulong sken ni dady, teary eyed pa nga siya eh, awww :')
"Go Cezzainne!" May sumigaw na lalaki na Pilipino, si Marc. Hahaha. Mga pangtritrip nila talaga, mamimiss ko yun.
Bumaba na din kami ng stage, I kissed my parents sa cheeks, "Thank you po." :')
They hugged me. :'')
And as we throw our graduation caps in the air, our graduation song is sang by the choir.
I Will Remember You by Sarah McLachlan
"I will remember you, will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by,
Weep not for the memories
Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad.
How clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun
Want to feel your warmth upon me
I want to be the one..."
May pinakita na sa screen, mga memorable pictures..
Nagulat naman ako nung lapitan ako ni Jeremy, "Congrats buddy! Hug?" I smiled at him and the hugged me, "Are you really sure?"
Tumulo naman ang luha ko, "Yes, yes I'm sure that I'm going.."
May bigla namang nag tap sa balikat ko kaya umalis ako sa yakap ko kay Jeremy..
Sila Jel at Laura.. tumingin naman ako kay Jeremy. Bumulong siya sken, "Atleast talk to them before you leave." *ngiti* sabay alis
Then I smiled at them, oh my this song makes me cry..
"I will remember you, will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much to deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard .."
"KYAAAAAAAAAAAAA!" sabay yakap sken ni Jel, "Ang gaga mo talaga! Bakit hindi mo sinabi na aalis ka na ha? Ang sadista mo talaga! MAMIMISS KITA!" Umiiyak na si Jel
"Mas m-mamimiss ko ikaw..."
"E-eh ako d-di mo mamimiss?" Napakalas naman ako sa yakap ni Jel, nakita kong umiiyak na din si Laura.. SHET NAIIYAK AKO :''(
"L-laura!" tumakbo siya sken at niyakap ako, "S-sorry kung hindi kita pinaniwalaan agad.. Nauna ang mga emosyon ko eh.. Sorry... Sorry k--------"
"Shhh..." sabay haplos sa likod niya..
"Will you forgive me Cez?" :''(
"I understand you, ano ka ba! Dati pa kita pinatawad.." Umalis ako sa pagkakayakap namin, "Sorry din nga pala sa nangyari sainyo ni Lorenz..."
"Ay nako! Magkakabalikan din yang dalawa! Tsss!" Sabi ni Jel sabay niyakap kaming dalawa, "Mamimiss ka namin ni Laura, Cez..." :'''(
"Mas mamimiss ko kayong dalawa.." :''(
"I'm so afraid to love you
But more afraid to lose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness
Deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me life..."
Nag-iiyakan kaming tatlo dun habang nakatingin sa screen, madami dami din kasi ang mga pictures namin dun sa video. Meron pa nga kaming picture na lahat ng Pilipino kumakain sa caf, ang saya lang namin tignan. :')
"I will remember you, will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much to deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard .."
We hugged each other again, "Best friends forever?" Jel
We nodded and hugged once more again. :''(
It is true that you can't stay mad at your best friends and no matter challenges we go through, will always be tough and be with each other. No distance can tear a friendship a part. :'')
At shmpre mawawala ba ang picture time?! Shmpre hindi! Picture dun, picture dito. "Wow, ang tatlong mangkukulam, bati bati na.." Pangaasar ni Kuya Carlos
"Ang laking ganda naman namin dun Kuya!" Jel
"Tsss. Osge na, picture na.. Bukas na flight nyan!" Kuya Carlos
"EEEEH KUYA NAMAN! Wag mo nang ipaalala, naiiyak ako!" *pout* Jel
"Osge umiyak ka, papanget ka sa picture!" Kuya Carlos
*pout* Jel
"Okay, 1. 2. 3. SAY MANGKUKULAM!" Kuya Carlos
"KUYAAAAAAAAAAAAA!" Kaming tatlo.
*click*
"KYAAAA! Mukha akong mangkukulam nga doon!" Jel
"Should I take a picture of Cez and Jeremy?" Parinig ni Kuya Carlos, bigla kasing dumaan sa harapan namin sila Jeremy.
"AYIEEEEEEEEEEEE!" sabi nung dalawa.
"Pssssh!"
"As a remembrance, atleast?" sabi ni Kuya na pumayag ka na look.
"Oh well, we're buds anyways! So buddy?" sabay tingin kay Buddy
Ngumiti siya, "I thought you won't ask.."
Umirap lang ako pero shmpre in a pabiro way *3*
"1 2 3.. SAY I LOVE YOU!"
"I love you..." Jeremy
0_____0 nabigla naman ako kaya napatingin ako skniya.
*CLICK*
"YOOOOWWWWN! Good shot! Should I switch now to photography?" Pagmamayabang ni Kuya Carlos
"AYIEEEEEEEEEEE!!" Lahat sila, isama mo pa sila mommy, psh.. :)))
Napatingin naman ako dun sa may gilid..
Nakita kong nakatingin sa dereksyon namin si Gabriel, I smiled at him, but he looked away and then talked with Elise. Alam kong kunwariang ngiti at mga tawa lang yun..
*faint smile* 'Just one last look at your face, Gabriel. I hope you'll be happy.. You must be happy..' I say in my mind.
Nabalik naman ako sa realidad ng hawakan ako nila Jel, "Uyy Cez, diba last day mo na ngayon at bukas na alis mo? Sleep over kami sainyo. Watcha think?"
"Ahh o sige ba!" :DDD Papalabas na kami auditorium, lumingon ako ulit sa dereksyon niya..
I smiled, "Goodbye Gabriel.."
CHAPTER 43:
Tell the person you love, that you love them before it's too late. Don't live with regrets.
Cez's POV
"UWAAAA! Mamimiss kita ng sobra sobra sobra Cez..." Iyak ni Jel habang yumayakap siya sken, nasa airport na kasi kami, isang oras na lang, goodbye Canada na ako at hello Philippines na ako. Hays.
Hinaplos haplos ko yung likod ni Jel, naiiyak kasi ako skniya eh, "Ingat ka dun ah? Lagi kang magoonline sa skype huh? Kwentuhan mo ako kapag may bago ka nang love life!"
*PAK* Binatukan ko nga ng mahina, "Puro ka na lang love life, tsktsk.."
"EEEEEH!! Mamimiss talaga kita!" Yakap niya ulit sken..
"EHEEEEM! May isa pa pong kaibigan dito oooh? Hello, I exist!" Sabat ni Laura
"Che! Moment muna namin to Cez, uwaaaaaa!" Jel
"Pag bilang ko ng tatlo Jel, mababatukan kita sige.." panakot ni Laura, napatawa naman ako, sadista pa rin talaga tong si Laura
"HMP! Sadist!" Sabi ni Jel, sabay alis sa pagkayakap namin, si Laura naman ang yumakap sken, "Sorry.. ulit..."
"Laura, okay na yun sken, forget the past na, mamimiss kita.."
"Mamimiss din kita kapwa sadista, wala na akong kasama sa pangbubully kay Jel.."
"KYAAA! Ako na naman!" Sabat ni Jel na nakatayo lang dun at pinupunasan ang mga luha niya.
"Sana maka move on ka na dun ah? Padalhan mo din kami ng Jollibee!" Masayang sabi ni Laura pero ramdam ko naluluha na siya, "Wag mo kaming kalimutan ah? Bisita ka dito..." And yun na nga, ramdam ko na ang pagtulo ng mga luha niya.
Kaya ako din, umiiyak na. Nakisali naman samin si Jel, "UWAAAAA! Ang sadista niyo talaga, isali niyo naman ako!" Tapos nakiyakap na din siya
Pagkatapos ng iyakan session naming tatlo, eh umupo muna kami at naghintay para sa flight ko. Nagkwentuhan lang kami dun.. Nung 30 mins. na kami dun eh...
"Omo!!" 0__________0 *sabay tapik sken ni Jel*
Naguusap kasi kami ni Laura, kaya hindi ko siya mapansin.. "Eh a-ano ba yun?" Hindi pa din ako nakatingin.
"Si!!!!" This time, si Laura na ang nagsabi.
Napatingin naman ako, pero hindi ko mamukhaan gawa nakatakip ang mukha niya ng mga bulaklak..
"Si???"
"OM EEEEM GEEEE!" Jel
Palapit na siya ng palapit at kumakabog ang puso ko, shemay! Ayoko ng intense! Si-sino ba kasi to?! AISH! Hindi kaya si? PERO HINDI! Imposible naman!
Kinakalog kalog ako ni Jel at ako naman eh hindi mapakali..
"SUPRISE!" sabi niya.
"KYAAAAAAAAAAAA!" Tili ni Jel
0__________________0
"Disappointed much?" Bulong ni Laura sken.
"H-hindi noh...Asa pang dumating yun..." Hays.. Buti na lang at hindi ako nag expect, kung hindi.. Ang sakit na naman sa puso.. <//3
"Psh, k. sabi mo eh!" And the she shrugged her shoulders.
"What's up with your reaction, you don't like it?"
"PSH! Yeah! you really suprised me there!" Sabay tayo ko at kinuha ko yung mga bulaklak, eh di sino pa ba to? Malamang si..
"Wow Jeremy, you really like my sister eh?" Kuya Carlos
Nginitian lang siya ni Jeremy.
"Well, silence and smile means yes!" Kuya Carl
Psh mga baliw talaga tong mga kapatid ko -___-
Nagtawanan at nagkwentuhan lang naman kami dun, inaasar pa nga ako nila Kuya kay Jeremy eh, aish nako! Hindi talaga ako makakatakas sa mga Kuya kong yun -___- :)) Hayy mamimiss ko sila..
"Calling all passengers going to Manila, Philippines is now boarding.." Nung pagkarinig na pagkarinig ko nyan, lalo akong nalungkot. WOO! This is it..
Isa-isa na nila akong niyakap, starting from my dad, "Ingat ka baby dun ah? After 1 month, bisitahin ka namin dun.. Love you.." sabay halik saken sa forehead.
Momy, "Baby, tawag ka lang pag may problema ah? Take care. I love you!" *halik sa forehead +hug*
Kuya Carlos && Kuya Carl, "Ingat ka dun baby! Sabihin mo lang smen kapag may nangbubully sayo! Reresbakan namin agad ni Twin! Mahal ka namin baby, ingat ka ah?" *sabay nila akong niyakap*
Niyakap ko na din yung dalawa kong lokaret na kaibigan na currently na umiiyak. Aww, naluluha tuloy ako.. :')
Lastly, si Jeremy..
"I'm gonna miss you.." *sabay yakap sken*
"Me too! Thank you very much buddy, for everything..."
"Let go now, I might take you away from here and never let you go.."
Nung pagkasabi niya nun, umalis na ako sa pagkakayakap ko skniya, "Pssh! Haha.." Nagtapat kasi siya sken na mahal niya daw ako, pero alam niya naman kung sino talaga ang laman ng puso ko. Natutuwa ako skniya kasi nirerespeto niya ang desisyon ko at nanatili siyang nanjan para sken..
*FLASHBACK*
Before graduation, inaya niya akong mag gala gala sa park, dahil nabubugnot daw siya sa pad niya.
"AHUUUM! You're 5 minutes late Mister!" Susunduin niya daw kasi ako sa lobby ng bldg. namen, ang usapan kasi 10:30 pero 10:35 na nung dumating siya, 5 minutes late pa din noh, hindi dapat pinagiintay ang babae.
"Sorry bud.." *sad face*
"Nah.. That won't do bud..." NAKO WAG KANG MAG PACUTE! KASI GWAPO KA :))) lels. Ang landi lang eh :)))
"Awww. I'm really sorry bud, hmm? What could I do for you to forgive me?" *pout*
"Hmmm? Lemme think..." *sabay may sign na nagiisip*
"Uhm? How about ice cream!!" Sabi niya
"Hmmm? Not a bad idea... so let's go? Psh! Never be late again, okay?!"
"Yes, mam.." *death glare* "I mean yes bud!"
Naglakad naman kami papuntang ice cream parlor. Nung nandito na kami, "Hi Mam and Sir, how may I help you?" *sabay twinkle twinkle ng mata nung cashier registar*
ABA'T!! Makatingin kay Jeremy ah! Psh :))))) Hmmm...
"Omo! Hey look at you BOYFIE!" sabay tingin kay Jeremy, "You're melting..."
"Huh?" ?___? confused na tanong niya
"Cause' the way she.." *sabay tingin dun sa cashier registrar*, "looks at you.. You're better than the ice cream that melts.. TSKTSK..." *smirk*
Nakita ko naman na napangisi si Jeremy, psh! :))) Namumutla naman yung babae, "Ahmm? Are you okay Ms? Can you take now our orders?" Tapos ngumiti ako ng nakakaloko skniya :DD
"A-aaah y-yes.." utal niya sabi, psh!!
At ayun na nga sinabi na namin yung order namin, nung binibigay naman niya smen yung order niya, halatang halata na hiyang hiya siya. WAHAHAHAHA! Ang sarap tumawa :)))))
Nakahanap na kami ng upuan ni Jeremy, "Tsss. Boyfie?! You are really something bud.." sabay abot niya sken nung ice cream ko.
"HAHAHAHAHA! Her face is priceless! Really! HAHAHAHAHA..." tawa ko
"Poor her... She must have been stunned by my presence!"
"Conceited much, bud?"
"Nah. It's the truth..." *sabay pogi sign* "Ma-ku-lit me.."
"WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!" lalo akong napatawa, paano ba naman, hindi niya pa din alam ang meaning ng MAKULIT! :)))))))) Hay nako :))))) Hayaan na nga :))))
"Hey... It's trueee!!!"
"Yeah, yeah...."
"You really like trippin' ah?"
"Well, that's me!" I proudly said..
"That's why I love you..." A-ano daw?!?!
"W-what?!" nabibingi ata ako -____-
"Do I have to repeat myself?" *dug dug dug dug dug dug*
*inom ng tubig* "W-whaaaat?!" 0_______________________________0 "D-did you just confessed to me?"
"WAHAHAHAHA. You are really Cezzainne..:" Tapos he pinched my cheeks, "Yes... I really love a girl like you..." sabay bitaw din..
"EEEEEHHH?!"
"Psh.. Yeah yeah I know.. We're just friends, and that's all we're gonna be.. No need to lecture me on that..." lumungkot naman ang boses niya, haaaay! Ikaw kasi sinayang mo yung chance mo eh, ayan tuloy.. Tsktsk..
I smiled at him, "Thank you Jeremy, for understanding me.. For all the things." I said to him wholeheartedly.
He smiled at me also, "Anything for the girl I love.."
*END OF FLASHBACK*
Sobra sobra talaga ang pasasalamat ko kay Jeremy. Siya kasi yung nanjan nung iniwan nila akong lahat. I really thank him at hindi niya ako iniwan. :)
Nag bye na ako saknilang lahat.. I smiled at them and I started to walk..
"TAKE CARE CEZ! BYEEEEIII!" Sigaw naman ni Jel, lumingon ako and then I smiled..
Kaya din ako lumingon, hoping na makakahabol siya at kahit isang sulyap lang makita ko siya.. Bago pa ako tuluyan maglakad patalikod sknila, hinanap ko muna siya sa buong airport, *sigh* wala talaga.
Binalik ko ang tingin ko sknila and then I flashed a smile and waved to them.. Tumalikod na ako at naglakad..
"Goodbye Gabriel..." I smile, weakly.
I started walking nang may biglang tumawag ng pangalan ko...
"AINNEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!" *dug dug dug dug dug dug*
Napalingon naman ako.. 0__________0
"G-gagabb?!" Hingal na hingal siya, tapos lumapit siya sken at bigla akong niyakap.
"Ang sadista mo talaga Ainne, aalis ka ba na hindi ka man lang magpapaalam sken ah?"
My tears started to run down to my face, "G-Gab..." He hugged me tightly...
"Marami pa akong sasabihin sayo, mga kailangan mong malaman.. Ainne.."
"CEZ AND GAB!!!!!!!!!!!" May suimgaw...
Nang bigla may *BAAAAAAAAANNGG* Nagpaputok ng baril...
"CEZZAINNE!! GABRIEEEEEL!!!!" Tawag ng family ko..
"Gabriel?!?!" May dugo sa likuran niya.. At unti unti na siyang bumababa mula sa pagkakayakap namin..
"GAGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAB!!!!" Sigaw ko <///3
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